Blow

On the vermont transit bus
I leaned my arm into a little chink of sun,
Going somewhere older than i was,
Strapped into something tight, keeping me small.
I dug into you like rock climbing;
Too scared of coming down,
Too scared of going up,
Too scared of rockface.
I should've split my sides or spilled my guts or hit you or something,
But i was good, and your father's little pancakes
So round and perfect and me sitting up too straight,
Laughing in wrong places, kissing you,
Kissing up, kissing too soon.

When the cock crows
When the morning comes where will i go?
When the cock crows
When the love is gone where will i go?

And when you got me pregnant i stopped the party and
I stopped the typewriter and i stopped your dumb ball game in the red barn and i
Stopped your father and bled instead.
And i felt the lie - something sticky on the inside,
A bitter wind in my throat,
Stopping me wanting,
In my stomach, in my head and you said

Sugar sugar, you couldn't come come
Sugar sugar, without your mother
Sugar sugar, you couldn't taste it
Sugar sugar, in my throat.

When the cock crows
When the morning comes where will i go?
When the cock crows
When the love is gone where will i go?

I got my daddy's eyes
But you gave me your double vision
I got my daddy's stride
Now i'm walking blind with double vision

And i can almost see your face now, in me
And i can almost feel the weight you carried

You had to break the skin
To put the blood between us
You did the dirty work
To put the blood between us

And i can almost see your face now, in me
And i can almost feel the weight you carried

Oooh rocking the seed in me
Learning to speak the mothertongue

Sometimes between the lines
I crashed, i could've killed you
I tried to go too fast
I crashed, i could've killed you

And i can almost see your face now, in me
And i can almost feel the weight you carried

Ooh-rocking the seed in me
Learning to speak the mothertongue

I saw a mountain from higher above.
I held your hand and i was doubled up in love.

Big sky above me, a river inside me
And i'm doubled up in love.

You're watching your step but you fall as you're walking.
You take it in stride but still you fall as you're walking.

Big sky above me, a river inside me
And i'm doubled up in love.

Feels good it feels like poetry
Don't ask me to explain it just
Feels good, like poetry,
I'm doubled up again.

Look at the sky,
Lift off like an aeroplane,
Watch the ground come up to meet you.

Big sky above me, a river inside me
And i'm doubled up in love.

Feels good, it feels like poetry,
Don't ask me to explain it just
Feels good, like poetry.
I'm doubled up again.

I put my hands where your wings should be,
I put my feet where the earth should be
And i can't see very far
And when you said that you were dead i hung on.

Something i feel,
You are an angel, or maybe you could've been
Something out here
You are an angel or maybe you could've been.

I've got this light hangs over me
I've got this fear cuts into me
And i can't see very far
And when you said that you were dead i hung on.

Something i feel
You are an angel, or maybe you could've been
Something out here
You are an angel or maybe you could've been.

See how they run
And nobody said you would go
See how they fall
And i can't see very far
And when you said you were dead i hung on.

Something i feel
You are an angel, or maybe you could've been
Something out here
You are an angel or maybe you could've been
See how they run
See how they run
All the same, all the same
Something out here
You are an angel

I'm talking to strangers
To see what i feel
Your face is changing now
And nothing seems real
These things i know
Are like a baby how they grow in me
I pull them out
Just like a baby for you to see them all

I'm talking to strangers
To see what i need
This love between us now
How it's twisting in me
I want to get it out
I want to feel the breathing
I want to really love
I want to know the meaning
I want to share all these things

These things i know
Are like a baby how they grow in me
I pull them out
Just like a baby for you to see them all