The Great Disappointment

I can remember a place I used to go.

Chrysanthemums of white,

They seemed so beautiful.

I can remember I searched for the amaranth.

I'd shut my eyes eyes to see.



Oh, how I smiled then, so near the cherished ones.

I knew they would appear...saw not a single one.

Oh, how I smiled then, waiting so patiently.

I'd make a wish and bleed.



While I waited

I was wasting away.

While I waited

I was wasted away.



I can remember... dreamt them so vividly.

Soft creatures draped in white,

light kisses gracing me.

I can remember when I first realized

dreams were the only place to see them.



While I waited

I was wasting away.

Hope was wasting away.

Faith was wasting away.

I was wasting away.



I never, never wanted this.

I always wanted to believe

but from the start I'd been deceived.



I never, never wanted this.

Inside a crumbling effigy,

so dies all innocence.

But you promised me