Fire It Up

I need somebody won't u help me
I need somebody won't you tell me who i am
I need somebody please please help me
I need somebody u must tell me who i am
I've been livin a lie so long it seems i've lived a life time
If u could see what i feel it would make your ghetto lood like heaven
And i believe it stems down from my family situation
I never liked my old man
I couldn't stand to be around him
Sometimes i sit all alone just starin at his picture
My heart turns to stone and i think of this

You never loved me you never held me tight
Instead u shook me like a beast to wake me up at night
U tried to make me think that your ways were best
When all i was was an outlet for all your stress

Life it's the ultimate sin
A game with no rules that you're expected to win
My personal hell's hidden with a grin
"dad take the stand and let the trial begin"
U said that oil and water don't mix though it seems cool
Keep with your own and don't fuck up our gene pool
U should've went to school like your bigger brother
But you played the fool with a different color
Runnin' ship with a whip
I tried to keep up but i kept getting tripped
Money made u so wise
How could u look thru my face and not see your own eyes
Do as i say and not as i do
But i can't cuz when i look in the mirror i see u
And oh the pain how it hurts
It was always your home and your business that came first
U said a man is as good as his word
But your mind was closed and mine never herd
They say the nut don't fall far from the tree
Look at u then look at me...

U ain't nothin to me u've never been to me
And all u ever gave a damn about was money see
So now fuck u man you ain't shit to me
And it's the day that i die of this hate that i'm free
Now i know growin up son that it ain't always been easy
And i know at times i was not always there for you
We never spent much time just talkin or havin a good time
But understand growin up son i never had a dime
So i worked my ass off and i put myself thru college
And everything i have to this day u know i built it all
Oh i wish i could go back and change the years that's lost between us
I wish i could take back some of the things i said to you
Son i said i'm sorry...
Son i said i'm sorry but still u resent me so
Son i said i'm sorry and why do u resent me so

I always loved u i always cared for u
Just never wanted u to go thru what i've been thru
I tried to raise my fuckin family just the best i know
And now i'm hated like the devil and for what i don't know
Dahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Cuz growin up i was never the logical one
Packed my shit and left home like the prodigal son
With a bottle of jack and my shotgun strapped
I went looking for fame and yo i've never been back
Filled with spite staying high as a kite
I was dealin and stealin everything in sight
Pool hustling trying to make that green
I've been ramblin and gamblin since the age of 13
Working like a bitch like a god damn tank
Some disagree because me rents had bank
But all that's gold non't always glitter
So i'll take another puff from my one hitter
I'm a slave tot he trade i'm paid to rhyme
Blow all my cash on cheap women and wine
Cause money, money, money ain't shit to me
But i gotta make a lot just to be free
Please god please i'll pay any cost
If you'd just stop the world cause i wanna get off
There's too much hardship there's too much pain
There's too many motherfuckers tryin to get in my brain
I've been to your mountains i've been to your seaside
And everywhere i went somebody's wanted a free ride
But parasites can't fake the rock
And any suckers that step in my way are getting shot
Cause i hold key to my own success
And suckers that step shall be put to rest
Yes, i hold the key to my own success
And suckers that step will catch a bullet in their chest,
So pass the buddha the funky tie hooter
And watch me rip because i'm such a slick shooter.
Not a generic dime a dozen m.c.
Never was in a posse never wanted to be
Now i've neen walkin the earth since the beginning of ti
And won't leave till i've received that 7th sign
All this talk their gonna drop the bomb,
But life keeps going on and on and on and on
The world's end don't worry me
And i'm gonna get where i'm going just hurry me
Cause i'm in no rush and i can't stand rushin
Everything is slow motion like i'm trippin on tussin
Fussin with the girls they waste my time
Thrashin and bashin going out of my mind
Crucified by the critics everyday
Cause i ain't really got that much to say
I'm a slave to the trade i'm paid to rhyme
I don't wear a watch and i don't keep time
I live my life just like the skipper
But only at night because i'm a day tripper
Twitchin-shakin like corky shootin smack
But still life goes on
Visions of red shoot through my head
And i won't stop trippin till the day i'm dead.