Don't Be A

I can't see ever feeling right again
I'm on a raft in a river that's roaring away with me
What good does it do me to have what i want
When i'm in no shape to enjoy what i have

Boiling
I'm burning
I'm losing my hold
On the life that i had
Running
I'm hiding
I'm telling myself
That these things aren't so bad

I can see there's just no way out of this (one)
I can feel the walls closing in on me
The door at the end of the tunnel is far too small
And there's 24 metric tons of fear closing in on me

Crawl across the floor
If it feels like something you know
Curl up in a ball
If it feels like home

Sleep as much as you can
If you can't sleep then lay there
Pick at yourself
Until you feel pure

Something's pulling you to the floor
Like a longtime friend
Someone's banging your head on the wall
As a means to an end

Empty
Filling up with sick
Like water in your lungs
Sucking yellow fog around your head

This must be the end of you
But you know this will never stop
You can't hear anything anymore
Just the hammer in your chest

Walk on through the growing noise
Of your inescapable path
Walk willingly into the dark
Nothing can touch you now

Once you were a child
The world was darker then
Fear was in the hall
But you won't think about that now

Just some warmth and a home
And an end to the task
Your doors are standing wide open
But it's too late for you now

And although it's not quite the time
Although we've just begun to leave
We will tarry not to say we were wrong
To leave behind a silent reproach
And when our eyes are searching out
And our hearts are beating strong
We'll have a reason not to grieve
With holly leaves and scanning skies
And if the colors fade into night
And the storms our heads enclose
And our souls are set against one another
If the seas receive us not
And the skies mock our lowliness
Then we shall still love one another
For we are two, together
For we are two, together

Do you feel small
Do you feel like nothing
Do you feel like you're wasting your time

Can you stand sunlight
Do you feel too much
How will you know where you're broken

But you know that the fear you feel
Comes back this time each day
And you know if you live a thousand years in silence
You will still feel this way

Can you see home
Can you see tomorrow
Can you see the sun anymore

Do you walk the world
Waiting to be discovered
Do you want what he said
You can never have

And you know that her tears were taken
And cooked up for the queen
But you will never find her now
She's gone and her trail is far to clean

And every single moment feels like everything is wrong
And everything around you says that this's not your home
And everybody else just seems to be already there
And you can't get from here to there
Without some sort of help you've never seen

It's white roses
It's a spinning sky
It's a field with the sun in your eyes

And do you ask yourself for help
To get you through the day
And when you're on the street you find
The world is moving away
Spend all day under water
Spend all night curled in a ball
And when you're all alone what reason
Can you see for trying at all

It's cold outside
And the paint's peeling off my walls
There's a man outside
In a long coat gray hair smoking a cigarette

Now the light fades out
And i wonder what i'm doing in a room like this
There's a knock on the door
And just for a second i thought i remembered you

So now i'm alone
And i can think for myself
About little deals and s.u.'s
And things i just don't understand

Like a white lie that night
Or a sly touch at times
I don't think it meant anything to you

So i open the door
It's the friend that i'd left in the hallway
Please sit down
A candle-lit shadow on the wall near the bed

You know i hate to ask
But are friends electric?
Only
Mine's broken down
And now i've no one to love

So i found out your reasons
For the phone calls and smiles
And it hurts and i'm lonely
And i should never have tried
And i missed you tonight
So it's time to leave
You see this meant everything to me

Still dark outside the window
Fucking alarm clock, start the day in fear
It's not the fun or any sense of community
They're just trying to dull the pain

The scientists say that it's a
Different animal altogether
And driven by forces deep
Within the chest that won't let it sleep and...

See the arm is sliced and
See the taken life and
See emaciation
Little scars are showing

On the outside

So now they've grown up in these
Brilliantly beautiful sterile communities
Floating like the sleepers through the
Flowers and emptiness, the boring futility

So now they're educated
12 years of chains and lost opportunities
What they have learned is how to
Jump when the bell rings and fear the breakdown

See the pain inflicted and
See the vein restricted and
See the pain inside
Caressed, unfolded, delivered

To the outside

It's known that nothing can be done
There's just no room for the unconverted
It's known that anything is possible
But there's nothing worth doing here

See the forgotten sun and
See the forsaken ones and
See them driving cars
As big as they are, as fast as they'll go and
See the eyes turned in and
See cigarette-burnt skin and
See self-loathing love
Assumed, turned up, and used

On the outside