Failure

I was wearing blinders to stave off the reminders
Of your image
Never contemplating the incinerating
Of my image
The rites of spring had no meaning
In my brain
And i could cling icicle-ing
Just the same

And all the time you saw me
You could not thaw me

Chorus
And now you've made blind eyes open
Sunlight streams in
Everything's clear as crystal
Enlightenment

Like a frozen snowfield i could never reveal
My true colors
I would never listen to all that i was missing
With the others
You stepped into my field of view
And triggerd
My cupid snare who would have dared
To figure

That all the time you saw me
You could not thaw me

Chorus

I curse my warped perspective
Just when i least expected
The tables turned, the candles burn
At both ends, and my nerve ends send
Sensational headlines to my brain

Paint me lifeless grey
For i have lost a friend today
To desprate selfishness
And so i will regress
To something more disturbing
Than all my words can say
Black and white can not explain
So paint me lifeless grey

Paint me darkest black
Tightend rope will never slack
To free the chosen few
Or change my charcoal hue
I may be color-coated
But that won't hide the fact
That under shades of lifeless grey
I'm painted darkest black

Bridge
It's just about that time of year
When we will lose somebody dear
Is that a funeral march i hear?
It's just about that time of year

Paint me burning red
All the things he did and said
And now i feel ashamed
I thought it was a game
I will not rationalize
Or justify the dead
I only want to free myself
From all this burning red

Bridge

Paint me (repeat)

I've spent half of my life in this god awful place
And i dare say i've only grown older
I've had all i can take with patience and kindness
I can't wait in this line any longer
But this is the way that i am
So if you choose me please abuse me
Never mind the mileage
There's no harming me intrinsically
And every sign of wear and tear
Is lost in autumn foliage
Well aren't you impressed

Now i'm stating endless waiting
Is my favorite pastime
There's nothing new for me to do
And so i have to wonder
Will there ever be a last time
'cause i need a rest

Chorus
Standing in the longest line
Waiting for my turn
I wonder if my turn will ever come

Chronic starter, perfect martyr
Never need a reason
I guess that i could hibernate
Or move away to another place
Pray for a change of season
When will my sun shine

Chorus

Now please don't show me spring time flowers
It'd be more than i could take
After living through the clouds and showers
I can hardly wait

Chorus

If you've spent half of your life in this god awful place
You will swear that you've only grown older
If you treat everyone you know with patience and kindness
You will not know your self for much longer

Well, this is what i have become
Standing in my line

Longest line [repeat]

I understand sometimes
What you go through
Is just too much to handle
For a person like you
Seems that whatever you take is way too much
That whatever you give is never enough
It's not too late for you to
Learn how to survive
And in your times of trouble
I could keep you alive

Chorus
You're really not that different
You're just like everyone
You go under easy when you get overdone

I've seen your situation
Happen before
And if you say you'll listen
I will tell you more
But i get the impression that you don't want to hear it
That whatever i say will not make a difference
None of my words will ever
Make you realize
And on you own you'll never
Learn to comprimise

Chorus (we all go under easy...)

Under all of us is the same ground
It's so easy to get knocked off of your feet
In spite of everything you let yourself down
'cause on your feet you only stand to be corrected
Well in reality that's to be expected
It's something you should have expected a long time ago

Well it's really no excuse and aren't you self abuse
Are you really seeking savation (i've tried to explain)
Moutains have been moved and theories have been proved
All within the duration (all you do is complain)
So when your show is over and all is said and done
I think it fair of me to say that you're not the only one
Who's acted like you had until their world has blown asunder
Either swim for your life or i'll watch you go under

You think that you're exceptional, you're just like everyone
We all go under easy

(repeat under all of us...corrected)
And you can argue that you've been misdirected
Well in reality that's to be expected
It's something you should have accepted (x3)
A long time ago

Well i've felt worse and i have felt
Better than this
I've made a pacifier
Out of my fist

Well i don't care when bones are bare
The mind can't interfere
And what i've said outside my head
Anyone can hear

Maybe i praise you 'cause i cannot praise myself
Won't you just take
A compliment from me?

Perhaps they're understated
And a little overmasked
If they were hand delivered
It would be more than i could ask

Forwardness ain't my business
But you can fish for compliments
While i beg for forgiveness

I'd like to reap the flatteries i sow
But i really cast seeds of doubt
Looks like you take them from everyone
And everyone hands them out

Self mutilation just ain't my trip
But now this is worth the trouble
Cut me open with your laughter
I bleed complementary colors

Tender seedlings trampled
And overwatered boughs
Won't you just take
A compliment from me?

Perhaps they're overstated
And a little undermasked
If they were what i really meant
It would be more than i could ask

Forwardness should be my business
But you can fish for compliments
While i beg for forgiveness

Well i have tried every approach
And they always leave me empty
But each one has it's special way
Of making everyone contempt me

It seems rather selfish to want to be loved
Or to love and expect you to care
But my batteries don't run on flattery
And it just gets me nowhere

Oh when was i ever promised
I'd get back all that i gave?
But i wouldn't care if you'd take
A compliment from me

Perhaps it's too late
Or too much to expect
But compliments that come no strings attached
Well, they're certainly the best
Thing for me, i adore you
But you can fish for compliments
And i won't be there to bore you

In the rites of passage i did partake
But to say that i'm responsible would be a mistake
What do i have to do
To prove myself to you
In a manner of speaking
You've taken all the finest pieces
And that doesn't leave me much to pick and choose
Now i'll have to be satisfied
With what little remains

You condemn me for the things that i say
But they don't seem to affect you at all anyway
Why can't you let it be
I don't suppose that you'll ever see
Exactly what makes me
Do all the things that i do
And believe me when a say i have my reasons
I have only tried to utilize
What little remains

You expect so much
And i accept so little
You're at war with yourself
And i'm stuck in the middle of it all

Though you pressure me i will not give in
You can yell and scream and say i have spread myself too thin
Wait a minute before you shout
Do you know who you're talking about
Are you referring to me
Or is it yourself that can't deal with
Do i stimulate a memory
Too close to home or could it be
That i'm becoming what you used to be?

I will leave no scars no marks or no stains
I will try to make the best of it what little remains

Here we are--only been a couple of years
Maybe longer
Yes it's true--i'm no good at being the strong man
You're stronger
But i think--maybe you should take a good look
At my feelings
Can't you see--i'm another one just like you
A human being

I don't want to have to sacrifice to have to get along
I don't ever want to be the one to say i'm wrong
I may hate you sometimes, but i'll always love you

What did you say--it's so hard for me to remember
What you meant
How did it happen--was it preconcieved
Or a complete accident
I still recall--we were once happy together
Smiling faces
But things have changed--and now you're only happy when
I remember where my place is

I don't want to have to live up to your expectations
I don't ever want to be the one to end relations
I may hate...

Do you think you could treat me
Like somebody special
I can't be everything to everybody
Could i at least be something to you?

Don't look so surprised--i'm a little smarter
Than every other weakling
Say no more--i know exactly what you're going to say
Without you speaking
A familiar phrase--i've heard it said often before
Please forgive me
Don't be a fool--if i can't live with myself
How could you live with me?

Now that i'm filled with emotion you're dispassionate
You only live for yourself while i live to regret
But don't ever think that i could easily forget
Because i'm damned if i do and i'm damned if i don't
I said that i would but now i know that i won't
And the chance of being right is looking kind of remote
I may hate you sometimes (x3)
But i'll always love you
I may hate you sometimes but i'll always love you