Proximity Effect

you're just walking round

your little mazes figuring out
how to get by,
how to get laid,
and get famous,
get yourself paid,
impress the guys.
you think you're thinking for yourself
but when you get on the
subway's most crowded part
just to stand behind a girl

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then you are
just a robot,
executing a program.
you are just a robot,
an imitation of a man

you're taught to divide
the world into buddies and wives,
sluts and wimps;
and ever since,
you've kept a scorecard
how else to prove
you're such the pimp.

you think you're thinking for yourself
but when you can't get any
the consentual way
you decide to use some force

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she told me one night
when we were lying quiet and cold,
something not right.
it had been months
since the good times,
once there was sun,
now there was night.

and she said to me
as she turned on the light,
"there's something you don't know
that keeps me from feeling right.
i once knew a guy,
i'd seen him around.
he knew all my friends,
he came from town.
one night at a party,
we both were there,
he followed me into the bathroom,
he grabbed my hair,"
and she said "i still remember
just how the floor felt
and how my head would hit the tub."

now where is that robot,
put a stake thru my true love
where is that robot,
should get struck down from above
you are just a robot,
executing a program,
an imitation of a man

why do i feel bad again?

i shouldn't be sad or miss a grin.
doubt creeps in and doubt creeps out,
skews the view from my cloud.
troublemaker tempting fate,
questioning the path i take,
showing me the twists and turns,
the forks and points of no return.
i would hold my breath so long
to wash ashore where i belong.
broken roses on the steps,
like promises i never kept.
promises i never made
but could have honored anyway.
tied to years, slave to fears,
i will always hold you dear.
tired, troubled but sincere,
wishing... fuck the rime.
wishing i had a time
to wish you mine.
every day i choose to spend
the rest of my life with her
and every day i break the molds
of lives and worlds.
i already miss the things
that i will never know.
i will never know the things
that i've already missed.

hands up who thinks it's now

home base is the bathroom where the lights are bright
it's never too late if you know how
we got our own brand of hyperspace
you cannot change anyone
there is no peace, there's only sun
when you want to go, i know you will
and i can see it all and i'm ok, but i wish there was another way
there's no right and there's no wrong
there's just the balance of the things you know

i only wanna say things that are pure;

now i won't be talking anymore.
i only wanna do things that are true.
every time i move i'm hurting you.

i wanna know what is it that you do
to keep from hurting anyone but you?
cause i still say your name
when i don't feel right, just like i used to

and if most people fade to gray and black,
you'll fade to light blue.
i think too much and then start talking mean.
where did i get all these selfish genes?

best friends, i'm a bad best friend.
i'll meet you today when no-one is watching.
we'll throw our money away, i'll meet you today.