Anoraknophobia

I can imagine nothing more tedious
Than trying to have fun with you again
Maybe it's just something in my mind
But i hate feeling like i'm trying all the time
It's a kind of lie
When we pretend that we're still friends
I'm sure you're not exactly short of people to
Hang out and laugh at your jokes
Tell you you look great
You wouldn't want me around
Making it all feel "forced "
..and "put down"

And every time i smile to wonder if i'm laughin' at you
And with every little grin you don't want to be wonderin'
Just exactly what it is i'm taking pleasure in

Although i always said
We were basically the same and all one
All one
It's so easy to persuade myself
I'm clockwork and you're quartz

I guess that irony
Will surely be
The death of me

And every time i smile d'you wonder if i'm laughin' at you?
And with every little grin you don't want to be wonderin'..

Although i always said
We were basically the same and all one
All one
It's so easy to persuade myself
I'm clockwork and you're quartz

You're only happy when you're oiled and jewelled
You're only happy when you wind me up and i know
You're so reliable it isn't true
And it's so easy for me to break down
If i could jump a ride between the skin and silicon then
We could join hands and understand. hallelujah!
But i listen
To the ticking
I guess we're worlds apart ...
It's so hard
So hard

I know there's no going back
And you know there's no going back

You're only happy when you're oiled and jewelled
You're only happy when you're oiled and jewelled
You're never happy

I need maintenance
I need patience
I'm not foolproof
I'm not waterproof
I'm not shockproof
Bombproof
Bulletproof
Fireproof
Leakproof
Childproof
Stainproof
Pressureproof

I know i told myself
We're all basically the same and all one all one
Y'know sometimes i just can't help myself
I'm clockwork and you're quartz
I'm clockwork and you're quartz

I know i never get the balance right
And turn up half an hour late night after night
And being totally dependable is so very commendable
Although you're never wrong
One of these days.. you're just gonna stop.

Today! i saw music in the sky
I drove towards it in my car
And i turned left and i turned right
But i could never lose the light
That shines towards tomorrow night
Who can say what it means?
What goes on in between
And what gets in between
It's just somethin'
Between you and me
Between you and me
Between you and me
It's as sweet as can be.

Today! i saw music in the sky
It sang around me. i went blind.
Like a masterpiece in a disguise
Couldn't stop it pulling at my eyes

Who can say what it means
What goes on in between
And what gets in between
Ice and fire
Between you and me
Between you and me
Sweet as can be
Between you and me

Monday.. tuesday.. blow a fuse day
Fix it in the usual way
Meet me at the church and we'll get in a state
Stay up late and i'll wake up feeling like
A kid swingin' on heavens gate
With no god to complain
Or point the finger of blame
We'll get it all down on video 8
You comin' out to play?
Could be quite a day...

And i sang that pretty tune
An open airy song
And my heart looped the loop
Well i could do no wrong.

Who can say what it means?
What goes on in between
Who can say what you see
And what gets in between you and me

Between you and me
Sweet as can be
Between you and me.

And if the bottle's no solution
Why does it feel so warm
And if that girl is no solution
Why did she feel so warm
And if to feel is no solution
Why do i feel
Why do i feel so tired
Why do i feel so broken
Why do i feel so outside
Why do i seem so blind
I'm so sick of feeling
It's ruined my life
If living rough is no solution
Why does it ease my mind
If looking back is no solution
Why are we all
Nothing but children
Children inside

Why do the gods
Sit back and watch
So many lost
What kind of mother
Leaves a child in the traffic
Turning tricks in the dark
What kind of god?

I crawled around inside myself
It was a long way down
It was a mine and it was mine
And in the darkness
I saw a perfect mirror
Floating in space

When i meet god
I'm going to ask her
What makes her cry
What makes her laugh
Is she just stars and indigo gas
Does she know why
Love has no end
But it's dark-angel friend
Tearing women and men
Slowly apart

Stain
Don't do that
Scream
Don't do that
Fail
Never do that
Never do that
I want to go out
Don't do that
I want an adventure
Just stay..
I want
Just stay in
I want to make love

And if the bottle's no solution
Why does it feel so warm
And if looking back is no solution
Why are we all just children inside
And if to feel is no solution
Why does the whole damn world feel so broken
So outside and out-of-sorts

A perfect mirror
Floating in space
Waves and numbers
But oh, such beautiful numbers
And oh, such waves..

Did you ever fall in love
Did you ever fall in love
Did you ever fall in love
Did you ever dream of falling
If my heart were a ball
It would roll uphill

We are alone in the world
We must do what we feel we should
We are told what is right
Need hurts within us
We can see sense
We can feel what feels right
And so often
All these things are not at all the same
They're not at all the same

If my heart were a ball
It would roll uphill
If my heart were a ball
It would roll uphill

Did you ever dream of running
And find you couldn't move
Did you ever dream of running
Running scared
Ankle deep in glue
With the monster after you
And it's catching up
Monsters catching up
And it's catchin' up and you're going nowhere
And you're slowin' up and you can't wake up
And it's catchin' up
And you're going nowhere wake up wake up
You're falling..

If my heart were a ball
It would roll uphill

Did you ever see a shadow
Cast against your bedroom wall
Crooked shadow in the lamplight
Ten feet tall
Did you ever dream of falling
And find you couldn't move
Did you give up.
And discover that you haven't given up
Did you ever dream of falling
Did you ever fall in love

Hard ball dream love now roll
Fall clown stain truth space time
Race give black white all one
Church state god fast as i could cry
Laugh hide feel no clouds will
To win sweet seed you me
Hard ball dream love now roll
Fall clown stain truth space time
Never do that, never do that
Will to win, will to win, never do that
Give black white all one wild
Church state now roll
Fall clown stain truth space time
Race fruit
Give
Never do that
If my heart were a ball it would roll uphill
All one insane wild sweet heart
Wild rose

Did you ever fall in love?..