Music Bank

Ain't found a way to kill me yet
Eyes burn with stinging sweat
Seems every path leads me to nowhere
Wife and kids household pet
Army green was no safe bet
The bullets scream to me from somewhere

Here they come to snuff the rooster
Yeah here come the rooster, yeah
You know he ain't gonna die
No, no, no, ya know he ain't gonna die

Walkin' tall machine gun man
They spit on me in my home land
Gloria sent me pictures of my boy
Got my pills 'gainst mosquito death
My buddy's breathin' his dyin' breath
Oh god please won't you help me make it through

Here they come to snuff the rooster
Yeah here come the rooster, yeah
You know he ain't gonna die
No, no, no ya know he ain't gonna die

Sitting on an angry chair
Angry walls that steal the air
Stomach hurts and i don't care

What do i see across the way, hey
See myself molded in clay, oh
Stares at me, yeah i'm afraid, hey
Changing the shape of his face, aw yeah

Candles red i have a pair
Shadows dancing everywhere
Burning on the angry chair

Little boy made a mistake, hey
Pink cloud has now turned to gray, oh
All that i want is to play, hey
Get on your knees, time to pray, boy

I don't mind, yeah
I don't mind, i-i-i
Lost my mind, yeah
But i don't mind, i-i-i
Can't find it anywhere
I don't mind

Corporate prison, we stay, hey
I'm a dull boy, work all day, oh
So i'm strung out anyway, hey

Loneliness is not a phase
Field of pain is where i graze
Serenity is far away

Saw my reflection and cried, hey
So little hope that i died, oh
Feed me your lies, open wide, hey
Weight of my heart, not the size, oh

I don't mind, yeah
I don't mind, i-i-i
Lost my mind, yeah
But i don't mind, i-i-i
Can't find it anywhere
I don't mind, i-i-i

Pink cloud has now turned to gray
All that i want is to play
Get on your knees time to pray, boy

I can't have you blues
I got the i can't have you, i can't have you blues
I can't have you, i can't have you blues
I can't have you, i can't have you...
Nothings the same, need my fix of you
A crack in the mirror, pictures split in two
I can't believe you slipped away
I been drinking too much cause i'm trying to forget your face
And if i always try to do, all the things you want me to
I've been letting myself down to an early grave
And if i always try to do, all the things you want me to
I've been letting myself down to an early grave
Nothing stays the same, in this game
I can't have you, i can't have you blues
I can't have you, i can't have you...
Nothings the same, need my fix of you
A crack in the mirror, pictures blank too
I can't believe you slipped away
I been drinking too much cause i'm trying to forget your face
And if i always try to do, all the things you want me to
I've been letting myself down to an early grave
Nothing stays the same, in this game
I can't have you, i can't have you blues
I can't have you, i can't have you blues
I can't have you, i can't have you blues
I can't have you, i can't have you blues

"good night..."
Yeah, it's over now, but i can breathe somehow
When it's all worn out, i'd rather go without

You know its been on my mind
Could you stand right there
Look me straight in the eye and say
That it's over now

We pay our debt sometime

Well it's over now, yet i can see somehow
When its all gone wrong, it's hard to be so strong

You know its been on my mind
Could you stand right there
Look me straight in the eye and say
That it's over now

We pay our debt sometime
Yeah, we pay our debt sometime
We pay our debt sometime
Yeah, we pay our debt sometime

Guess it's over now, i seem alive somehow
When it's out of sight, just wait and do your time

You know its been on my mind
Could i stand right here
Look myself in the eye and say
That it's over now

We pay our debt sometime
Yeah, we pay our debt sometime
We pay our debt sometime
Yeah, we pay our debt sometime

(spoken)"junk, fuck"
A good night, the best in a long time
A new friend turned me on to an old favorite
Nothing better than a dealer who's high
Be high, convince them to buy

What's my drug of choice?
Well, what have you got?
I don't go broke
And i do it a lot

Seems so sick to the hypocrite norm
Running their boring drills
But we are an elite race of our own
The stoners, junkies, and freaks

Are you happy? i am, man.

Content and fully aware
Money, status, nothing to me
'cause your life is empty and bare

What's my drug of choice?
Well, what have you got?
I don't go broke
And i do it a lot
I do it a lot, yeah

You can't understand a user's mind
But try, with your books and degrees
If you let yourself go and opened your mind
I'll bet you'd be doing like me
And it ain't so bad

What's my drug of choice?
Well, what have you got?
I don't go broke
And i do it a lot
Say, i do it a lot!
I do it a lot!
I do it a lot!
Say, i do it a lot

It's alright
There comes a time
Got no patience to search
For peace of mind
Layin' low
Want to take it slow
No more hiding or
Disguising truths i've sold

Everyday it's something
Hits me all so cold
Find me sittin' by myself
No excuses, then i know

It's okay
Had a bad day
Hands are bruised from
Breaking rocks all day
Drained and blue
I bleed for you
You think it's funny, well
You're drowning in it too

Everyday it's something
Hits me all so cold
Find me sittin' by myself
No excuses, then i know

Yeah, it's fine
We'll walk down the line
Leave our rain, a cold
Trade for warm sunshine
You my friend
I will defend
And if we change, well i
Love you anyway

Everyday it's something
Hits me all so cold
Find me sittin' by myself
No excuses, then i know

There's no time to give at all
I cause you grief and blow my hatred
Further in your mind
You reach, i run, you fall
On skinned knees you crawl

I want to set you free, recognize my disease
Love, sex, pain, confusion, suffering
You're there crying, i feel not a thing
Drilling my way deeper in your head
Sinking, draining, drowning, bleeding, dead

So you sit and think of love
I wait, hate all the more, i fall
On skinned knees i crawl

I want to set you free, recognize my disease
Love, sex, pain, confusion, suffering
You're there crying, i feel not a thing
Drilling my way deeper in your head
Sinking, draining, drowning, bleeding, dead

Now there's time to give it all
I put my fears behind again
On skinned knees we'll crawl

I want to set you free, recognize my disease
Love, sex, pain, confusion, suffering
You're there crying, i feel not a thing
Drilling my way deeper in your head
Sinking, draining, drowning, bleeding, dead
Love, sex, pain, confusion, suffering

Care not for the men who wonder
Straw that broke your back, you're under
Cast all them aside who care
Empty eyes and dead end stare

Don't you know that none are blind
To the lie, and you think i don't find what you hide?

What in god's name have you done?
Stick your arm for some real fun

For the horse you've grown much fonder
Than for me, that i don't ponder
As the hair of one who bit you
Smiling bite your own self, too

And i think that you're not blind
To the ones you left behind
I'll be here

What in god's name have you done?
Stick your arm for some real fun

So be yearning all your life
Twisting, turning like a knife

Now you know the reasons why
Can't get high, or you will die
Or you'll die

What in god's name have you done?
Stick your arm for some real fun
So your sickness weighs a ton
And god's name is smack for some

Mind, of destructive taste
I choose...to stroll amongst the waste
That was your heart
Lost in the dark
Call off the chase

Walls of thought, strong and high
As my castle crumbles with time...
I think of you
Oh, yes i do
Such a crime

You opened fire...and your mark was true
You opened fire...aim my smilin' skull at you
You opened fire...
I live tomorrow, you i'll not follow
As you wallow in a sea of sorrow

Lines cut across my face
Why you laugh at my disgrace
I'll never know
How far to go
To reach that place

You opened fire...and your mark was true
You opened fire...aim my smilin' skull at you
You opened fire...
I live tomorrow, you i'll not follow
As you wallow in a sea of sorrow

We chase misprinted lies
We face the path of time
And yet i fight
And yet i fight
This battle all alone
No one to cry to
No place to call home

Oooh...oooh...
Oooh...oooh...

My gift of self is raped
My privacy is raked
And yet i find
And yet i find
Repeating in my head
If i can't be my own
I'd feel better dead

Oooh...oooh...
Oooh...oooh...

Frozen in the place i hide
Not afraid to paint my sky with
Some who say i've lost my mind
Brother try and hope to find

You were always so far away
I know that pain so don't you run away
Like you used to do

Roses in a vase of white
Bloodied by the thorns beside the leaves
That fall because my hand is
Pulling them hard as i can

You were always so far away
I know that pain and i won't run away
Like i used to do

Pictures in a box at home
Yellowing and green with mold
So i can barely see your face
Wonder how that color taste

You were always so far away
I know the way so don't you run away
Like you used to do
Like you used to do

"sure god's all powerful, but does he have lips? whoa..."
Dear god, how have you been then?
I'm not fine, fuck pretending
All of this death your sending
Best throw some free heart mending
Invite you in my heart, then
When done, my sins forgiven?
This god of mine relaxes
World dies i still pay taxes

Can i be as my god am
Can you be as god am
Can i be as my god am
God of all my god am

So lord, i see you grinnin
Must be grand always winning
How proud are you being able
To gather faith from fable

Can i be as my god am
Can you be as god am
Can i be as my god am
God of all my god am
God am
My god am
God am
God

All the respect i'm giving
Shared strength acquired by living
All blooming life you're feeding
Can't hide sick ones you're weeding

Can i be as my god am
Can you be as god am
Can i be as my god am
God of all my god am
God am
God am
God am
God am

Loneliness it shadows me, quicker than darkness
Crawls to the surface of my skin, visibly surrounded by it

Black is all i feel, so this is how it feels to be free

Surrounded by empty souls, artificial courage used
And because so, once was mine
I walk this maze alone

Black is all i feel, so this is how it feels to be free

The man's beside himself, man's below himself
Man's behind himself, am i inside myself

Chaos and hate shadow me, pain it fills me up
Only one thing makes me feel, missing better half of me

Black is all i feel, so this is how it feels to be free

The man's beside himself, man's below himself
Man's behind himself, am i inside myself

Chaos and hate shadow me, hate it fills me up
Only one thing makes me feel, missing better half of me

Black is all i feel, so this is how it feels to be free

The man's beside himself, man's below himself
Man's behind himself, am i inside myself

My daddy was a trucker
Left home when i was three
He fell for some dude in austin
Then it was mom and me
She always wanted a daughter
Well look at what she got
A'hit me, beat me, a faggot i ain't
But a real man they say i'm not
I'm the queen, queen of the rodeo
Queen, queen of the rodeo
So cowboy, if you're lookin for lovin'
I ain't no queer, go fuck a steer
"i think there's one over there..."
I drink too much, i smoke too much
I'm a human waste
I buy a lot of cheap alcohol
But i'll tell ya honey, i really hate the taste
I dressed in drag, they call me a fag
But boy, i really don't care
Cause last night i met your girlfriend, sucker
And i hope ya like to share, cause she did
I'm the queen, queen of the rodeo
Queen, queen of the rodeo
So cowboy, if you're lookin to fight
I ain't no wimp, i scratch and bite
"and i'm gonna kick your ass too..."
Queen, queen of the rodeo
Fuck you!
Queen, queen of the rodeo
Queen, queen of the rodeo

What's gone wrong, i can't see straight
Been too long, so full of hate

What the fuck will it take
Drown myself in my wake
Another shaggy d.a.
Now a dog, shake my leg
Plastic man, paper face
Candy heart, what a waste
Gotta change, set a date
Eat my cake, lick my plate

Stare at me with empty eyes and
Point your words at me
Mirror on the wall will show you
What you're scared to see

I can see, yeah - (wish i couldn't see at all)
I can feel - (wish i couldn't feel at all)
Hate to see - (wish i couldn't see at all)
Hate to feel - (wish i couldn't feel at all)

So climb walls,
Thin my blood now
And i crawl, back to bed now

What the hell, gotta rest
Aching pain in my chest
Lucky me, now i'm set
Little bug for a pet
New orleans, gotta get
Pin cushion medicine
Used to be curious
Now the shit's sustenance

All this time i swore i'd never
Be like my old man
What the hey it's time to face
Exactly what i am

I can see, yeah - (wish i couldn't see at all)
I can feel - (wish i couldn't feel at all)
Hate to see - (wish i couldn't see at all)
Hate to feel - (wish i couldn't feel at all)

What the hell, gotta rest
Aching pain in my chest
Lucky me, now i'm set
Little bug for a pet
New orleans, gotta get
Pin cushion medicine
Used to be curious
Now the shit's sustenance

All this time i swore i'd never
Be like my old man
What the hey it's time to face
Exactly who i am

I can see, yeah - (wish i couldn't see at all)
I can feel - (wish i couldn't feel at all)
Hate to see - (wish i couldn't see at all)
Hate to feel - (wish i couldn't feel at all)

I believe them bones are me
Some say we're born into the grave

I feel so alone, gonna end up a
Big ole pile a them bones

Dust rise right on over my time
Empty fossil of the new scene

I feel so alone, gonna wind up a
Big ole pile a them bones

Toll due bad dream come true
I lie dead gone under red sky

I feel so alone, gonna end up a
Big ole pile a them...
I feel so alone, gonna end up a
Big ole pile a them...
I feel so alone, gonna end up a
Big ole pile a them bones

Inside always trying to get back inside
But it's so hard to penetrate pig-thick skin

I'm 'bout as low as i can get
I'd leave but i can't forget
Still i wonder why it ain't right, mmm it ain't right, oooh
Ain't right, mmm it ain't right, yeah

'bout as low as she can get
She'll leave me but she won't forget
And she wonders why she ain't right, she ain't right
Ain't right, she ain't right

Now we're as low as we can get
Can't leave and can't forget
We ain't right, we ain't right
Not right, we ain't right

(backround)well it's hard to believe that somebody tricked you
When you can see you were only high
It's all up to you so you gamble
Flat on your face and into the fire

Yeh, it goes away
All of this and more of nothing in my life
No color clay
Individuality not safe

As of now i bet you got me wrong
So unsure you run from something strong

I can't let go
Threadbare tapestry unwinding slow
Feel a tortured brain
Show your belly like you want me to

As of now i bet you got me wrong
So unsure you run from something strong

I haven't felt like this in so long
Wrong, in a sense too far gone from love
That don't last forever
Something's gotta turn out right

You sugar taste
Sweetness doesn't often touch my face
Stay if you please
You may not be here when i leave

As of now i bet you got me wrong
So unsure we reach for something strong

I haven't felt like this in so long
Wrong, in a sense too far gone from love
Strong, i haven't felt like this in so long
Wrong, in a sense too far gone from love
T hat don't last forever
Something's gotta turn out right

There i was, laid out on a table
Screamin' sweat and bare feet to the floor
In my life, i'd not soften
Things that cut, and burn so often
But i sit, think of somethin'
Scared to face, the dyin' nothin'

See the cycle i've waited for
It ain't like that anymore

Where i go is when i feel i'm able
How i fight is why i'm feelin' sore
In my sight, not forgotten
Feel as though, a tooth were rotten
Behind the smile, a tongue that's slippin'
Buzzards cry, when flesh is rippin'

See the cycle i've waited for
It ain't like that anymore

Here i sit writing on the paper
Trying to think of words you can't ignore
In my eyes, what i'm lacking
Score at face, a ten for slacking
Sign the deal, set in motion
Smaller fish, so huge the ocean

See the cycle i've waited for
It ain't like that anymore

You say you don't like the way we look
Well fuck off
I ain't some dying dog that you can kick
So fuck off
It's so easy to fall into that hole
And you're the one who cast me in that role
If you loved me would you call me a social parasite
And who's the one to tell me whether it's wrong or right
You say you don't like the place i live
Well get out
There ain't no vacancy in my bed
So get out
It's so easy to fall into that hole
And you're the one who cast me in that role
If you loved me would you call me a social parasite
And who's the one to tell me whether it's wrong or right
If you loved me would you call me a social parasite
And who's the one to tell me whether it's wrong or right
(1, 2, 3, go...)
You say you don't like the way we look
Well fuck off
I ain't some dying dog that you can kick
So fuck off
It's so easy to fall into that hole
And you're the one who cast me in that role
If you loved me would you call me a social parasite
And who's the one to tell me whether it's wrong or right
If you loved me would you call me a social parasite
And who's the one to tell me whether it's wrong or right

In the darkest hole, you'd be well advised
Not to plan my funeral before the body dies, yeah
Come the morning light, it's a see through show
What you may have heard and what you think you know, yeah

Let the sun never blind your eyes
Let me sleep so my teeth don't grind
Hear a sound from a voice inside

Sure to play a part, so you love the game
And in truth your lies become one and same, yeah
I could set you free, rather hear the sound
Of your body breaking as i take you down, yeah

Let the sun never blind your eyes
Let me sleep so my teeth don't grind
Hear a sound from a voice inside

In the darkest hole, you'd be well advised
Not to plan my funeral before the body dies, yeah

Let the sun never blind your eyes
Let me sleep so my teeth don't grind
Hear a sound from a voice inside

Bury me softly in this womb
I give this part of me for you
Sand rains down and here i sit
Holding rare flowers
In a tomb...in bloom

Down in a hole and i don't know if i can be saved
See my heart i decorate it like a grave
You don't understand who they
Thought i was supposed to be
Look at me now a man
Who won't let himself be

Down in a hole, feelin' so small
Down in a hole, losin' my soul
I'd like to fly,
But my wings have been so denied

Down in a hole and they've put all
The stones in their place
I've eaten the sun so my tongue
Has been burned of the taste
I have been guilty
Of kicking myself in the teeth
I will speak no more
Of my feelings beneath

Down in a hole, feelin' so small
Down in a hole, losin' my soul
I'd like to fly but my
Wings have been so denied

Bury me softly in this womb
Oh i want to be inside of you
I give this part of me for you
Oh i want to be inside of you
Sand rains down and here i sit
Holding rare flowers (oh i want to be inside of you)
In a tomb...in bloom
Oh i want to be inside...

Down in a hole, feelin' so small
Down in a hole, losin' my soul
Down in a hole, feelin' so small
Down in a hole, outta control
I'd like to fly but my
Wings have been so denied

Be what you wanna be
See what you came to see
Been what you wanna be
I don't like what i see

Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you... hell within
Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you... hell within
Like the coldest winter will
Heaven beside you... hell within
And you think you have it still, heaven inside you

So there's problems in your life
That's fucked up, and i'm not blind
I'm just see through faded, super jaded
And out of my mind

Do what you wanna do
Go out and seek your truth
When i'm down and blue
Rather be me than you

Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you... hell within
Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you... hell within
Like the coldest winter will
Heaven beside you... hell within
And you wish you had it still, heaven inside you

So there's problems in your life
That's fucked up, and i'm not blind
I'm just see through faded, super jaded
And out of my mind

Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you... hell within
Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you... hell within
Like the coldest winter will
Heaven beside you... hell within
And you know you have it still, heaven inside you

So there's problems in your life
That's fucked up, but you're not blind
You're just see through faded, overrated
And out of your mind