1039/Smoothed Out Slappy Hour

I'll go for miles 'till I find you
You say you want to leave me
But ya can't choose..

I've gone thru pain every day & night
I feel my mind is going insane
Something I can't fight

Don't leave me X 3

A blank expression covering your face
I'm looking for directions for out of this place
I start to wonder...
If you'll come back
I feel the rain storming:
After thunder I can't hold back
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Princess in a school girl's dream
May I please speak with you
I'm having troubles with control
And it's all because of you
Today I kept on falling down
I thought it was the street
So I look down at my shoes
They were on the wrong feet
I find it hard to be myself
(Can you please exlain?)
I do not think that it's my health
(You're the one to blame)
You're the one I wish I had
And now my girlfriend is getting mad
(I cannot call this sane)
Today as I was walking down
You bumped into me
You said, 'excuse me' and walked away
As I dropped to my knees
I prayed to the being in the sky
That my parents told me of
I asked about you but no reply
No clues about your love
My girlfriend left me on the phone
I'm pathetically left here alone
(I cannot call this sane)
Can we find a way
So that you can stay
I think I'm gonna Pop

Now I rest my head from
Such an endless dreary time
A time of hopes + happiness
That had you on my mind
Those days are gone + now it seems
As if I'll get some rest
But now + then I'll see you again
And it put's my heart to test
So when are all my problems
Going to end?
I'm understanding now that
We are only friends
To this day I'm asking why
I still think about you
As the days go on I wonder
(Will this ever end?)
I find it hard to keep control
When you're with your boyfriend
I do not mind if all I am is
Just a friend to you
But all I want to know right now
Is if you think about me too...?
So when...(chorus)

Late last night I had a dream
And she was in it again
She and I were in the sky
Flying hand in hand
I woke up in a cold sweat
Wishing she was by my side
Praying that she'll dry fears
Left on my face I've cried
Oh I love her
Keep dreaming of her
Will I understand
If she wants to be my friend
I'll send a letter to that girl
Asking her to be my own
But my pen is writing wrong
So I'll say it in a song
Oh I love you more right now
More than I've ever loved before
Here's those words straight from these lips
I'll need you forever more

Here we go again, infatuation
Touches me just when I
Thought that it would end
Oh but then again it seems
Much more than that but
I'm not sure exactly what you're thinking
I toss and turn all night
Thinking of your ways of effection
But to find that it's not different at all
I throw away my past mistakes
And contemplate my future
That's when I say...
What the Hey!?!
Would I last forever?
You and I together, hand and hand
We run away -far away-
I'm in for nasty weather
But I'll take whatever you can
Give that comes my way -far away-

Every night I dream the same dream
Of getting older all the time
I ask you now, what does this mean?
Are these problems just in my mind?
Things are easy when you are a child
But now these pressures have dropped on my head
The length I've gone are just long miles
Would they be shorter if I were dead
Every time I look in my past
I always wish I was there
I wish my youth would forever last
Why are these times so unfair
Look at my friends and see what they've done
Ask myself why they had to change
I like them better when they were young
Now all these times are rearranged
I look down and stand there and cry
Nothing ever will be the same
The sun is rising, now I ask why?
The clouds now fall and here comes the rain

I wish I could tell you
But the words would come out wrong
Oh if you only knew
The way I felt for so long
I know that We're world's apart
But I just don't seem to care
These feelings in my heart
Only with you I want to share
The first time I caught a glimpse of you
Then all my thoughts were only of you
I hope that when time goes on
You will think the same about me
Many nights awake I lie
I only wish that you could see
I know that we're only friends
I hope this feeling never ends
If I could only hold you
It's the only thing I want to do.

Hey can you hear me?
I'm calling your name
Hello? or is this goodbye?
The gleam in your eyes
It troubles my brain
Will I see it again
So I can rest my head
Angel! Dancing away
As all of my thoughts are rearranged
Angel! turning away
To have changed
So I can rest my head

Sitting in my room last night
Staring at the mirror
I couldn't find a reason why
I couldn't be near her
'Cause you are the one that started
To make me feel this way
And every night I'm thinking
About the words you say
Pictures going through my mind
When we're together
All these long and sleepless nights
Will I ever get better
Now you know how I feel
This love is forever
You make my life seem so unreal
Will I ever get better?...

Now you see me now you don't
Don't ask me where I'm at
'Cause I'm a million miles away
Treated like a forbidden heel
Don't say my thoughts are not for real
Or you won't see me again
Am I here or am I there
Or am I playing on the stairs
Am I in my room with my toys
I am the disappearing boy
When I walk in crowded rooms
I feel as if it is my doom
I know that I don't belong
In that room I see her
I see her & she's with him
I turn and then I'm gone
Don't call me up 'cause I'm not home
My whereabouts are now unknown
I vanished from all your joy
I'm the disappearing boy
I have my doubts
Of where I belong
It's something to think about