Sparkle & Fade

There is a dream I used to have
My dream swallowed me whole
There is a bridge where I hate to go
That is where I first saw her
High on the bridge
I seen her red hair shining

There is a girl- I never knew
She was my Aunt Virginia
They said that she-
she just disappeared
They said I look just like her

High on the bridge I seen her
Dancing, waving to me there
She smiled and raised her head
Then she took to the Air

There is a dream I can't escape
My memories come back to me
There is a hell I can't escape
My memories come back to me

I heard the truth about it
Pictures and headlines hidden away
I heard the truth about my real mom
Jumping from the bridge that day

Now I know why ever since
I was 3 years old
Been having the same nightmare
Now I know the truth about Virginia
Why she took to the Air

Let's just drive your car
We could drive all day
Let's just get the hell away from here
For I am sick again-
just plain sick to death
Of the sound of my own voice
We could leave behind
another wasted year
Just get some cheap red wine
And just go flying

We could do the things,
All the things you wanted to
No one cares about us anyway

I think I lost my smile
I think you lost yours too
We have lost the power to
make each other laugh
Let's just leave this place
And go to Summerland
Just a name on the map
Sounds like heaven to me

We could find a town-
be just how we want to be
No one here really cares
about us anyway
We could find a place-
make it what we want it to be
No one really gives a fuck
about us anyway
We could live-
live just like we want to live
No one here really cares
about us anyway
We could be-
everything we want to be
We could get lost in the Fall
Glimmer Sparkle and Fade
The Sparkle and Fade
Fall Glimmer Sparkle and Fade

Forget about our jobs at
the record store
Forget about all the losers
that we know
Forget about all the memories
that keep you down
Forget about them
We could lose them in the
Sparkle and Fade
We could leave them behind
In the Sparkle and Fade
Yeah Sparkle and Fade
Fall Glimmer Sparkle and Fade

Amanda is in love
With the sight of the moon
She's got pale green stars
In her room
Right above her bed

Put them on the ceiling
Leave on the light
When the sun goes down
Then the stars might shine

Shining in the dark

Skinny little girl in her room alone
She's got hell to spare
In her home
If you can call it a home

Doesn't want to be
Like anybody else
When no one is around
She talks to herself

I can hear her in the night

Hey- hey yeah
It's hard on a girl
When the blood won't come
When it ought to come
It's hard on a girl
When you try to walk around
On the shaky ground

Hey, hey
Daddy's going away

Scared little girl
Watching Aladdin on TV
Amanda always cries
When you yell at me

Yeah- please don't yell at me

Climb up all those stairs
Close the door
Doesn't want to
Hear us fighting anymore

Yeah, better call it a day

Hey- hey yeah
It's hard on a young girl
She thinks it's all her fault
When it all goes wrong
It's hard on a grown man too
See my baby crying at the window
Calling out my name

Hey, hey
Daddy's going away

She's got pale green stars in her room

People you know
Try to tell you things
Bad things that you don't
want to know about
Tell you tomorrow what
You did today
Just remember, it's a small town

It's a real small town

She gets she's tired of
All the stupid boys
She can't wait until
They're done
She wants a man who can
Take his time
She wants someone
Who can make her come

Yeah, can you make me come

You always say you want a simple life
You and me both know that
you are a liar
You always say you want a simple life
Hearing you talk just makes me tired

Swim in the heavy water
Buried in the sand
Happy hearts fall from my
shaky hands
I can't hide my sexual life

He always says he wants to
find a special one
But you watch his head go
spinning around
He really wants anyone
who'll give it up
He seems to forget he's in
a small town

You always say
You never fuck around
You say this town
Is just plain full of liars

Yeah you always say
You never fuck around
Hey, hearing you talk
Just makes me tired

Swimming in the heavy water
Buried the sand
Happy hearts fall from
my stupid hands
I can't hide my sexual life

My sexual life

We have been sleeping
with the lights on
Just about every night
Because we are afraid what
the dark might bring
I know, I know it's just a childish fear
That grows and grows wild in the
middle of me

I'm gonna get a new tattoo
Black and stretching around my arm
Like a life that is visable and real
I know, I know it's stupid
and immature
I just want to give shape to the face
That twists inside
Both you and me

Breathing fire-
doesn't look good on a resume
Neither does anything else we do
We got to get ready for the real world
Yeah yeah we got to grow up

You know I like to die for awhile
Everyday in the afternoon
I like to let the arms of a bar
Wrap around me tight
I'm just going to sprawl
in the front booth
Big drink above my head
Cross eyes and smiling as
I watch the world
Go twisting by

I don't want to die with you,
Or live in the same dark room
I don't want to see your
bloodshot eyes no more, no more
I just want to take this girl-
all curls and big brown eyes
Man I can't take the pain
of wanting her, needing her

I know the secret of your soul
And I just don't want to know-
Yeah, man we got to grow up

Time stops when the whispers blare
The voices drop hard,
but the eyes still stare
The world resolves into a
death's head grin
Because I walk with pride
with a black girlfriend

My mom said not to bring her around
Cause she's black
My Family would put her down
I'll break the white-trash
ties that bind
Trade a love so pure for
a hate so blind

She said- she said
Forget the fact that I don't
look like you
She said- she said
You're possessed with a power
Bigger than the pain

Time stops when we lie so close
In my room where we share
What no one knows

From the day that we start
Until the day that we end
I know I know I know now
We will never find a place
Where we could just fit in

Me and my black girlfriend

She said- she said
Fend for yourself- you're alone
She said- she said
You are possessed with a power
Bigger than the pain

A power bigger than the pain

Heartspark Dollarsign

I shake the dust from this small town
I turn and follow the western
wind down
I go and pack up my shiny things
And go, yeah just go

I'll find a new life in old L.A.
Yeah, stupid happy with everything
I pulled myself down so easily
I know, I know, I know

I met Electra when living down
saw her spinning around and around
I never knew much about her past
I knew enough that I didn't ask

living isn't a simple thing
I know
no one ever said it's supposed to be
I know

July she lied...

living isn't a simple thing for me
I know ways to make it easier