Sparkle & Fade

There is this rumor about
They say you're leaving nehalem
Ever since our baby died
You've been seen with another guy
The whole damn town is talking now
They say you're leaving nehalem

Hey don't you want me to go?
Hey don't you want me?

They say you're losing your mind
They say you're leaving nehalem
You know how the bad words get around
Big noise in a hard small town

Tell me if you want me to go
Just tell me if you want me

They say you're leaving nehalem
They say you're leaving me

Yeah, i know you need to break away
I don't give a fuck about what those people say
I hope you find everywhere you go
All the good things that you need to know

They say you're losing your mind
They say you're leaving nehalem
There is this rumor out
They say you're leaving nehalem
They say you're leaving me
They say you're leaving nehalem
I know you're leaving me
I know you're leaving nehalem

I know you're leaving me

Never been here, never coming back
Never want to think about the things
That happened today
Want to lay down on the warm ground
I think i'm going to need a little time to myself

Don't fall down now
You will never get up
Don't fall down now



I ask you for a slow ride
Going nowhere
You look like satan
You ask me if i want to get high
Couple of bags down in old town you tie your arm and
Ask me if i wanted to drive


Don't fall down now
You will never get up
Don't fall down now


Last thing i recall
I was in the air
I woke up on the street
Crawling with my strawberry burns
Ten long years in a straight line
They fall like water
Yes, i guess i fucked up again


Don't fall down now
You will never get up
Don't fall down now

We have been sleeping with the lights on
Just about every night
Because we are afraid of what the dark might bring
I know, i know it's just a childish fear
That grows and grows wild in the middle of me


I'm gonna get a new tattoo
Black and stretching around my arm
Like a life that is visible and real
I know, i know it's stupid and immature
I just want to give shape to the face
That twists inside both you and me


Breathing fire -- doesn't look good on a resume
Neither does anything else we do
We got to get ready for the real world
Yeah yeah we got to grow up


You know i like to die for awhile
Everyday in the afternoon
I like to let the arms of a bar
Wrap around me tight
I'm just going to sprawl in the front booth
Big drink above my head
Cross eyed and smiling as i watch the world
Go twisting by


I don't want to die with you
Or live in the same dark room
I don't want to see your bloodshot eyes no more, no more
I just want to take this girl -- all curls and big brown eyes
Man i can't take the pain of wanting her, needing her

I know the secret of your soul
And i just don't want to know --
Yeah, man we got to grow up

Amanda is in love
With the sight of the moon
She's got pale green stars
In her room
Right above her bed
Put them on the ceiling
Leave on the light
When the sun goes down
Then the stars might shine

Shining in the dark

Skinny little girl in her room alone
She's got hell to spare
In her home
If you can call it a home

Doesn't want to be
Like anybody else
When no one is around
She talks to herself

I can hear her in the night

Hey -- hey yeah
It's hard on a girl
When the blood won't come
When it ought to come
It's hard on a girl
When you try to walk around
On the shaky ground

Hey, hey
Daddy's going away

Scared little girl
Watching aladdin on tv
Amanda always cries
When you yell at me

Yeah -- please don't yell at me

Climb up all the stairs
Close the door
Doesn't want to
Hear us fighting anymore

Yeah, better call it a day

Hey -- hey yeah
It's hard on a young girl
She thinks it's all her fault
When it all goes wrong
It's hard on a grown man too
See my baby crying at the window
Calling out my name

Hey, hey
Daddy's going away

She's got pale green stars in her room

Let's just drive your car
We could drive all day
Let's just get the hell away from here
For i am sick again -- just plain sick to death
Of the sound of my own voice
We could leave behind another wasted year
Get some cheap red wine
And just go flying

We could do the things,
All the things you wanted to
No one cares about us anyway


I think i lost my smile
I think you lost yours too
We have lost the power to make each other laugh
Let's just leave this place
And go to summerland
Just a name on the map
Sounds like heaven to me


We could find a town -- be just how we want to be
No one here really cares about us anyway
We could find a place -- make it what we want it to be
No one really gives a fuck about us anyway
We could live -- live just how we want to live
No one here really cares about us anyway
We could be -- everything we want to be
We could get lost in the fall glimmer sparkle and fade
The sparkle and fade
Fall glimmer sparkle and fade


Forget about our jobs at the record store
Forget about all the losers that we know
Forget about all the memories that keep you down
Forget about them
We could lose them in the sparkle and fade
We could leave them behind in the sparkle and fade
Yeah sparkle and fade
Fall glimmer sparkle and fade

She lost her focus yesterday
She lost her focus in the sun
She sits and stares at it for hours
She says she likes to go outside
She gets hung up on the wind
She gets lost inside the happy noise
Sometimes i don't understand her
Sometimes i don't want to understand her

She says no no no no
She don't want no double life
She says i should know why
She seems happier at night
Her color tv and her chemical smile


I don't wanna know the reason
I don't wanna know the reason why

She says
Jesus owes her money
She says
The angels are her friends

What the hell does that mean?

She's got the chemical smile

People you know
Try to tell you things
Bad things that you don't want to know about
Tell you tomorrow what
You did today

Just remember, it's a small town


It's a real small town


She gets she's tired of
All the stupid boys
She can't wait until
They're done
She wants a man who can
Take his time
She wants someone
Who can make her come

Yeah, can you make me come

You always say you want a simple life
You and me both know that you are a liar
You always say you want a simple life
Hearing you talk just makes me tired

Swim in the heavy water
Buried in the sand
Happy hearts fall from my shaky hands
I can't hide my sexual life

He always says he wants to find a special one
But you watch his head go spinning around
He really wants anyone who'll give it up
He seems to forget he's in a small town

You always say you never fuck around
You say this town
Is just plain full of liars

Yeah you always say you never fuck around
Hey, hearing you talk
Just makes me tired

Swimming in the heavy water
Buried in the sand
Happy hearts fall from my stupid hands
I can't hide my sexual life

My sexual life