Bespoke Songs Lost Dogs Detour

Almost blue
Almost doing things we used to do
There's a girl here and she's almost you
Almost all the things that your eyes once promised
I see in hers too
Now your eyes are red from crying

Almost blue
Flirting with this disaster became me
It named me as the fool who only aimed to be

Almost blue
It's almost touching it will almost do
There's a part of me that's always true...always
Not all good things come to an end now it is only a chosen few
I've seen such an unhappy couple

Almost me
Almost you
Almost blue

I want to vanish
This is my fondest wish
To go where i cannot be captured
Laid on a decorated dish
Even in splendor this curious fate
Is more than i care to surrender
Now it's too late

Whether in wonder or indecent haste
You arrange the mirrors and the spools
To snare the rare and precious jewels
That were only made of paste

If you should stumble upon my last remark
I'm crying in the wilderness
I'm trying my best to make it dark
How can i tell you i'm rarer than most
I'm certain as a lost dog
Pondering a sign post

Chorus

I want to vanish
This is my last request
I've given you the awful truth
Now give me my rest

You should hear the things that they say about me
They're saying "she's no better than she needed to be"
They don't know that he was kind and strong and tender
And now i'll never be another unwanted number
Unwanted number
How can i tell them?
How can i express?
How it felt to step out of this life and into his embrace

How can i tell them?
How can i explain?
All the love that i never had i found in him

There may be a stain on the family name
And if my father was here i think i know who he'd blame
Mama says that he just doesn't care to remember
And all he thinks of me is another unwanted number
Unwanted number

(how can i tell her?
How can i express?
How it felt when he came to my room
And helped me to undress
What can she tell me?
How can i believe
That she really didn't hear me cry
When he wouldn't leave?)

There's a local game where they whisper my shame
They say "he gave her his child
He wouldn't give her his name"

They will torture me from january till september
And soon there's going to be another unwanted number
Unwanted number
Unwanted number

And i will give my love to another unwanted number
Unwanted number
Unwanted number

(words macmanus/o'riordan, music: costello)
I favour a good punishing kiss
It helps pass the lonely afternoon
Another stiff drink, wipe off that lipstick
For when you reach a certain age
All the most villainous men can be found on channel ten
I make them dance in attendance
'we will be back in a minute or two'
And he will punish that girl
Oh forget the reason
Just look at me i'm lost in a social whirl
She was never so witty
Always struggling to be full of fun
'on weekdays
From mid-day to one'
In a little black cocktail dress everyone hates
She'll be saving the world inbetween fashion plates
I know what she gets up to in the back of that blacked out limousine
And i catch myself shouting at the screen
I think that it's time to turn over
They say it's harmless i know
A hundred and ten percent certain
Virtually real
If you need something to feel
Then favour a punishing kiss
It helps chase the wasted afternoons
The flowers and pearls
The long lost relations
That love sick tom-boy comes in bloom
The pointless heartache
That seems to belong in my blue room
Can't stand the suspense
The endless embraces
Each episode lends the silly pretence
Say i can look away when i will never miss it
Starts with a joke
And ends with a punishing kiss

I see those newly weds
Their eyes wide and believing
They bill and coo at the mention of chez nous
Appearances can be deceiving

It's just a door and a window
Four walls and a roof
But a home of your own would be shatterproof
A door and a window
Four walls and a roof
But a home of your own would be shatterproof

We papered over all the cracks
And painted a cat's lick and a promise
The landlord was a man of few words
And most of them were ominous

It's just a door and a window
Four walls and a roof
But a home of your own would be shatterproof
A door and a window
Four walls and a roof
But a home of your own would be shatterproof

It was nothing really to write home about
Then one day it all appears too much
Here comes my little hammer and its shatterproof touch

He said, "be practical,
These are most unreasonable demands.
Forget about the broken spectacles
And the damage to your hand."

It's just a door and a window
Four walls and a roof
And the doctors say i'm almost shatterproof

Deep dead blue
Deep dead blue
Deep dead blue that nightly shades
I'm lost in deep dead blue
Deep dead blue
Beyond the deep dead blue

The demo of "deportee" has essentially the same lyrics as this earlier version of the song
In the arrivederci roma nightclub, bar and grill
Standing in the fibreglass ruins watching time stand still
All your troubles you confess
To another faceless backless dress
Schnapps chianti porter and ouzo
Pernod vodka sambuca i love you so
Deportee

Tatty beauty talking in riddles
Rome burns down everybody's on the fiddle
Two thousand dollars for wife and some class
A thousand years drowned in a chaser glass
How i wish that she was mine
I could have been a king in six eight time
Schnapps chianti porter and ouzo
Pernod vodka sambuca i love you so
Deportee

It's a brittle charm but she's had enough
Still she wrote her number on his paper cuff
You don't know where to start or where to stop
All this pillow talk is nothing more than talking shop

When i came here tonight my pockets were overflowing
They took my return ticket without me even knowing
I pray to the saints and all the martyrs
For the secret life of frank sinatra
But none of these things have come to pass
In america the law is a piece of ass
I'm a deportee

I'm sorry to say that you don't know me
I'm sad in ways you never understood
Each time i try to tell the ugly truth
You always let it pass you by
You said i 'd never tell you a lie
Just because i could
Did you really think i was a bad man?
You always said that that should be my middle name
But you don't know the half of it
You don't know how that name fits
You don't know my hidden shame

Hidden shame, shame, shame
That i can't get free
From the blame and the torture
And the misery
Must it be my secret for eternity?
Till you know my hidden shame you really don't know me

Well, there's a different kind of prison
And it don't even have to look much like a cell
It's already on your mind
Boy, we can see it in your eyes
So, here's the bars and walls as well

Well, you know i'm never coming home, babe
You said you'd stand by me until i cleared my name
Sure it's easy to be strong
When you know the charge is wrong
But the days and weeks get long
When you've got a hidden shame

Chorus

I had a friend when i was just a boy
We were like brothers, we would run and hide
And we went walking on a high hillside
And i really don't how it happened
He turned to me and had this strange look in his eye
And not a single word was spoken
I must have pushed him, but i don't remember why
And all at once, he lay there broken
And i walked down without him and i didn't even sigh

Chorus

They say you always hurt the one you love
And i'm not saying if i did or if i didn't
But like my shame, that kind of love is always hidden
They locked me up here for the ideas in my head
They never got me for the thing i really did

Chorus

"i'm trouble" she said
Spread out on the floor of her father's house
Her promise was almost undone
Under her tongue, dissolving her responsibilities
To finally deny everyone with unflattering comparison

Chorus
All grown up
And you don't care anymore
And you hate all the people that you used to adore
And you despise all the rumors and lies of the life you led before

Did i hear you right?
You're feeling hounded and pushed around
You want to just lay down and die
If all of this life has been such a big disappointment to you
Why don't you stop blaming some guy
And go give the next one a try

Chorus

But look at yourself
You'll see you're still so young
You haven't earned the weariness
That sounds so jaded on your tongue

"i'm weak" she says
And blesses herself and gets into bed
Clutching the covers to her throat
"so punish me now and let me go back to the sham of my life"
"this night is the perfect antidote for all of the poison that
You wrote"

Chorus

(mccartney/macmanus)
My brave, my brave, my brave face

I've been living in style
Unaccustomed as i am
To the luxury life
I've been hitting the town
And it didn't hit back
I've been doing the rounds
Unaccustomed as i am
To the time on my hands
Now i don't have to tell anybody
When i'm gonna get back
Ever since you went away i've had the sentimental inclination not to change a single thing
As i pull the sheet back on the bed i want to go bury my head in your pillow

Now that i'm alone again
I can't stop breaking down again
The simplest things set me off again
Take me to that place
Where i can find my brave face
Where i can find my brave face
My brave, my brave, my brave face

I've been living a lie
Unaccustomed as i am
To the work of a housewife
I been breaking up dirty dishes
And been throwing them away
Ever since you left i have been trying to compose a "baby, would you please come home" note meant for you
As i clear away another untouched tv dinner from the table i made for two

Now that i'm alone again
I can't stop breaking down again
The simplest things set me off again
Take me to that place
Where i can find my brave face
Where i can find my brave face
My brave, my brave, my brave face

Shall we agree that just this once
I'm gonna change my life
Until it's just as tiny or important as you like?

And in time we won't even recall that we spoke
Words that turned out to be as big as smoke
As smoke that disappears in the air
There's always something that's smoldering somewhere

I know it don't make a difference to you
But oh! it sure made a difference to me
You'll see me off in the distance, i hope
At the other end
At the other end of the telescope.

The promise of indulgence in my confidential voice
Approached immortal danger but you'll never know how close
Then down the hall i overheard such a heavenly choir
They interrupted my evil designs
One day you are up in the clouds
The next thing you're down with the sweet adelines

(chorus)

Lie down baby now don't say a word
There there baby your vision is blurred
Your head is so sore from all of that thinking
I don't want to hurt you now
But i think you're shrinking

You're half-naked ambition and you're half out of your wits
Or several tiny fractions that this portrait still omits
And it's so hard to pick the receiver up when i call
I never noticed you could be so small
The answer was under your nose but the question never arose

I know it don't make a difference to you
But oh! it sure made a difference to me
'cause late in the evening as i sit here moping
With a bamboo needle on a shellac of chopin
And the cast-iron heart that you failed to tear open
At the other end
At the other end of the telescope