Mock Heroic

Once upon a time...
I was rattling around
Like a songbird that you prized
But it never made a sound

Someone told me not to come
They told me not to look
But you know i never take advice
And one time is all it took

I thought hey, i'd treat you like an aeroplane
I'd feed you clouds and vapor trails
We'd go for walks on everest
We would sleep underneath the watchful eye of the crescent moon.

It might seem ludicrous
I know it sounds cliche´
But when she walks into the room
She brings a brighter day

Can't help but watch her every move
While i pretend to look away
Smitten, bound and gagged
But if i got the chance i'd say

I'd say hey, i'll treat you like an aeroplane
Ill catch you like a falling star
I'll be your hero astronaut
And wel'l sleep underneath the waterfall of the milky way

But if i wait a little while
I might find the nerve to find the words to say to her
I find the timing's right to wait a little while
A little while

Perfect is a number
That you're not allowed to say
So when she put me on the spot
I quickly coined a phrase

I said hey, i'll treat you like an aeroplane
I'll feed you clouds and vapor trails
We'l go for walks on everest
And we'll sleep underneath the waterfall
Yeah, we'll sleep underneath the watchful eye of the crescent moon.

Scene i:
A dull and dreary day.
What else can you say?
"eustice, you're always such a bore."
Why, thank you, isadore."
"they say a door is nothing on its own;
It must lead somewhere.
I'd like to go somewhere.

We could go for a look-about in the attics and the closed rooms
Find diaries and letters of long-dead distant lovers.
It'd be just like when we were children sneaking all around
We wouldn't make a sound;
They'd beat us black and blue if we were found,
But they can't touch us now!

"izzy, don't mean to be a bore
But really isadore.
You know these grey days make me blue.
I don't know what to do.
No...there's nothing i want to do."

Scene ii
The dull and dreary day becomes a dark and stormy night.
"eustice, we could go outside and bottle fireflies.
Fairy lamps burn bright
In the face of stormy night
And the old black umbrella
Could keep us from all harm.

We could go to the lichyard and see what there's to see.
Maybe a cabal meets underneath the banyan trees.
It'd be just like when we were children sneaking all around
We wouldn't make a sound;
We thought they'd reach out from their graves and drag us down,
But they don't scare us now!"

"izzy, don't mean to be a drag
But i'll do no such thing;
I'm staying in this chair.
I'd probably break my neck
Falling in an open grave
Or catch some horrid, fatal ache."

"oh eustice, come with me; come outside.
It'll be all right."

The doctor said with joy: "a healthy baby boy"
October 4th of 1925

His parents had a plan
He'd live a better life
Be a man of means
Who knows, he might go really far

And then the days slipped by
And turned into years
And many pages turned in the story of his life

Took a detour through a war
Cast a shadow across his soul
October 4th of 1944

Stories he would never tell
So he had to write them down to keep them captive
On veteran's day he pulls them out
It's a cleansing of the soul
And a freeing of his mind

He didn't change the world
But he eventually met a girl
Their child would be his only legacy

And so he cried to god
"it's not what i had planned!
And there's one more thing i'll never understand:

How did the days slip by
When did they turn into years?"
How many pages did you get for the story of your life?

Call it what you will
Name it tragedy
But in the end he just looks back and smiles
It's just his life

Daylight falls too hard.
I can't believe my eyes, what...what have i done?
Should've never lost control.
I smashed away the good old days, and i can never go home.
I wish that i could

Tear out a page...
Take back the words that got away.
I'll take the blame
For one solitary life.

Cold fright, something's wrong.
I thought it was my right, what...what have i done?
I can't mend what i've torn apart.
I cut the line one last time,
And now i've fallen too far.
I wish that i could

Tear out a page...
Take back the words that got away.
I'll take the blame for one solitary life.

No excuse. no surprise.
Morning has broken me down and cut me to size.

I wish that i could tear out a page...
Take back the words that got away.
I'll take the blame for one solitary life.
One solitary life.

No place left to hide
One solitary life?

You don't have to say you need me
We've been down that road before
Need always leads to trust, you know,
And trust is a game we don't play well.
And you don't have to say you want me
Wanting makes you weak and pale
Blink once if you want to be near me
Twice if you'd rather i live in hell.
I would beg you not to leave me but you're here
I would tell you to walk out on me today
But you're half a world away.

You don't have to say you forgive me
I don't wanna make you a liar
You've said it so many times before
Thus quoth the raven "nevermore."
And you don't have to say you love me
That's a fire you've come to hate
It used to warm your throat like wine
But now you're burning my valentines.
I would beg you not to leave me but you're here
I would tell you to walk out on me today
But you're half a world away.

Oh you're half a world
You're half a world away
Oh you're half a world
You're half a world away

I would beg you not to leave me but you're still here.
I would tell you to walk out on me today
But you're half a world away.

Oh you're half a world
You're half a world away
Oh you're half a world
You're half a world away

(lyrics: becker)

I should have known by the look on your face when you climbed in the car where you wanted to go.
Rumors i'd heard
No longer ignored
You opened your mouth but before you could speak
I said no, i really don't think i want to know
I really don't think i want to go that far now
Let's just stay right where we are now
Leave well enough alone

I squint at the road but i can still see
Windshield reflections; you're staring at me.
You've something to say that i don't want to hear
And it gets hard to drive when i'm covering my ears.
So i say no, i really don't think i want to know
I really don't think i want to go that far down
I'd rather stay uninvolved now

These fevered confessions frighten me and though you're my friend
I swear if you don't stop soon it's a long walk home again.

You just won't quit
What made you believe i wanted to hear the secrets you keep?
Now i see what it takes
Your head hits the windshield when i hit the brakes
Cause i said no, i really don't think i want to know
I really don't think i want to go that far now
Let's just stay right where we are now
I said no, i really don't think i want to know
I really don't think i want to go that far down
You've gotten me involved now
Now look what you've done