Wish

There's no-one left in the world
That i can hold onto
There is really no-one left at all
There is only you
And if you leave me now
You leave all that we were
Undone
There is really no-one left
You are the only one
And still the hardest part for you
To put your trust in me
I love you more than i can say
Why won't you just believe?

I really don't know what i'm doing here
I really think i should've gone to bed tonight but...
Just one drink
And there're some people to meet you
I think that you'll like them
I have to say we do
And i promise in less than an hour we will honestly go
Now why don't i just get you another
While you just say hello...
Yeah just say hello...

So i'm clutching it tight
Another glass in my hand
And my mouth and the smiles
Moving up as i stand up
Too close and too wide
And the smiles are too bright
And i breathe in too deep
And my head's getting light
But the air is getting heavier and it's closer
And i'm starting to sway
And the hands on all my shoulders don't have names
And they won't go away
So here i go
Here i go again...

Falling into strangers
And it's only just eleven
And i'm staring like a child
Until someone slips me heaven
And i take it on my knees
Just like a thousand times before
And i get transfixed
That fixed
And i'm just looking at the floor
Just looking at the floor
Yeah i look at the floor

And i'm starting to laugh
Like an animal in pain
And i've got blood on my hands
And i've got hands in my brain
And the first short retch
Leaves me gasping for more
And i stagger over screaming
On my way to the floor
And i'm back on my back
With the lights and the lies in my eyes
And the colour and the music's too loud
And my head's all the wrong size
So here i go
Here i go again...

Yeah i laugh and i jump
And i sing and i laugh
And i dance and i laugh
And i laugh and i laugh
And i can't seem to think
Where this is
Who i am
Why i'm keeping this going
Keep pouring it out
Keep pouring it down
And the way the rain comes down hard
That's the way i feel inside...

I can't take it anymore
This it i've become
This is it like i get
When my life's going numb
I just keep moving my mouth
I just keep moving my feet
I say i'm loving you to death
Like i'm losing my breath
And all the smiles that i wear
And all the games that i play
And all the drinks that i mix
And i drink until i'm sick
And all the faces that i make
And all the shapes that i throw
And all the people i meet
And all the words that i know
Makes me sick to the heart
Oh i feel so tired...

And the way the rain comes down hard
That's how i feel inside...

If only you'd never speak to me
The way that you do
If only you'd never speak like that
It's like listening to
A breaking heart
A falling sky
Fire go out and friendship die
I wish you felt the way that i still do
If only you'd never look at me
The way that you do
If only you'd never look like that
When i look at you
I see face like stone
Eyes of ice
Mouth so sweetly telling lies
I wish you felt the way that i still do
The way that i still do
But you don't
You don't feel anymore
You don't care anymore
It's all gone

If only you'd never pull from me
The way that you do
If only you'd never pull like that
When i'm with you
I feel hopeless hands helplessly
Pulling you back close to me
I wish you felt the way that i still do
The way that i still do

If only you'd ever speak to me
The way you once did
Look at me the way you once did
Pull to me the way you once did
But you don't
You don't feel anymore
You don't care anymore
It's all gone
It's all gone

I think i've reached that point
Where giving up and going on
Are both the same dead end to me
Are both the same old song
I think i've reached that point
Where every wish has come true
And tired disguised oblivion
Is everything i do

Please stop loving me
Please stop loving me
I am none of these things

I think i've reached that point
Where all the things you have to say
And hopes for something more from me
Are just games to pass the time away

Please stop loving me
Please stop loving me
I am none of these things

I think i've reached that point
Where every word that you write
Of every blood dark sea
And every soul black night
And every dream you dream me in
And every perfect free from sin
And burning eyes
And hearts on fire
Are just the same old song

Please stop loving me
Please stop loving me
I am none of these things
I am none of these things

I am none of these things

You look like you could do with a friend she said
You look like you could use a hand
Someone to make you smile she said
Someone who can understand
Share your trouble
Comfort you
Hold you close
And i can do all of these
I think you need me here with you
You look like you do with a sister she said
You look like you need a girl to call your own...
Like fabulous! fabulous!
Call me fabulous!
And rubbing her hands so slow
You stare at me all strange she said
Are you hungry for more?
I've had enough i said
Please leave me alone
Please go

It doesn't touch me at all
It doesn't touch me at all

You know that you could do with a friend she said
You know that you could use a word
Like feel or follow or fuck she said
And laughing away as she turned
You've everything but no-one
Like the last man on earth
And when i die i said
I'll leave you it all
Door closes
Leaves me cold

It doesn't touch me at all
It doesn't touch me at all

You really do need a sister she said
You really do need a girl to call your own...
Like wonderful! wonderful!
Call me wonderful!
And running her hands so slow
You stare at me all strange she said
Are you hungry for more?
I've had enough i said
Please leave me alone
Please go
Please go

If only you'd never speak like that
The way that you do
If only you'd never speak like that
It's like listening to
A breaking heart
Friendships die
Fires go out
All these lies
I wish you felt the way that i still do
The way that i still do

I wish you didn't look like that
The way that you do
If only you'd never look like that
When i look at you
A face of (hate?)
Eyes like ice
And mouth so sweetly telling lies
I wish you felt the way that i still do
The way that i still do
But you don't
You don't feel anymore
You don't care anymore
It's all gone

If you'd never talk like that
The way that you do
If only you'd wouldn't speak like that
It's like listening to
Fires go out
Friendships die
Mouth so sweetly telling lies
I wish you felt the way that i still do
The way that i still do
But you don't
You don't feel anymore
You don't care anymore
It's all gone
It's all gone
It's all...

Remember the way that the dream could come true
It's all up to you
Remember the way that the dream could come true
Just pull
It's all up to you
Just push

Every time we do this
I fall for her
Wave after wave after wave
It's all for her
I know this can't be wrong i say
(and i'll lie to keep her happy)
As long as i know that you know
That today i belong
Right here with you
Right here with you...
And so we watch the sun come up
From the edge of the deep green sea
And she listens like her head's on fire
Like she wants to believe in me
So i try
Put your hands in the sky
Surrender
Remember
We'll be here forever
And we'll never say goodbye...

I've never been so
Colourfully-see-through-head before
I've never been so
Wonderfully-me-you-want-some-more
And all i want is to keep it like this
You and me alone
A secret kiss
And don't go home
Don't go away
Don't let this end
Please stay
Not just for today

Never never never never never let me go she says
Hold me like this for a hundred thousand million days
But suddenly she slows
And looks down at my breaking face
Why do you cry? what did i say?
But it's just rain i smile
Brushing my tears away...

I wish i could just stop
I know another moment will break my heart
Too many tears
Too many times
Too many years i've cried over you

How much more can we use it up?
Drink it dry?
Take this drug?
Looking for something forever gone
But something
We will always want?

Why why why are you letting me go? she says
I feel you pulling back
I feel you changing shape...
And just as i'm breaking free
She hangs herself in front of me
Slips her dress like a flag to the floor
And hands in the sky
Surrenders it all...

I wish i could just stop
I know another moment will break my heart
Too many tears
Too many times
Too many years i've cried for you
It's always the same
Wake up in the rain
Head in pain
Hung in shame
A different name
Same old game
Love in vain
And miles and miles and miles and miles and miles
Away from home again...

Elise, it doesn't matter what you say
You know i'll stay here every yesterday
Like keep on acting out the same
The way we act out
Every way to smile
Forget
And make believe we never needed
Any more than this
Any more than this

Elise it doesn't matter what you do
You know i'll never really get inside of you
To make your eyes catch fire the way they should
To (may?) the blue will pull me in
If they only would
If they only would
At least i'd lose this sense of sensing
Something else that hides away
From me and you this world's to part
With aching moves
And breaking hearts
And all the smiles your hands can take
But i can take as much as you can throw
And then throw it all away
Oh i'll throw it all away
Like throwing faces as the sky
Like throwing arms round yesterday
I stood and stared like stone in front of you
And the way i stared it seemed i looked right out of you
And even the way i stand
I stand away from you
Elise believe me take me away from this
And secretly we'll slip into all our promises
Away from it all in the cover of the night again
And we'll watch the years fall
And we'll dream it all back like we do

Elise it doesn't matter what you say
You know i'll stay here every yesterday
Like keep on acting out the same the way
We act out
Every way to smile
Forget and make believe we never needed any more than this
Any more than this

As fast as i pick it up
It falls away through my clutching hands
As fast as i pick it up
It falls away like falling sand
But there's nothing else i can really do
There's nothing else i can really do
There's nothing else i can really do at all...