Black Sails In Sunset

Welcome the whole new pain
And take comfort in what you've become.
I waved as i passed myself along the way.
I have arrived so unashamed but my reflection no longer seems the same.
It seems much dimmer now... it seems so dim.
Just stumble and fall into a world that's over crowded.
And you will find me.
Won't recognize me;
And i won't recognize myself.
I've arrived so unashamed,
But all my senses no longer seem the same.
I can sense everything.
My sight's so clear.
In an instant,, my life just slipped away,
I fought for life, the whole time you were holding me down.
You watched me dying.
Holding me down, you brought my rebirth.

Lean against the night and laugh as i try to scale the walls.
Ingnored futility fills the air.
You're only there to watch me fall...
If only pure sweetness was offered,
Why's this bitter taste left in my mouth?
If i could catch my breath just to exhale,
I'd know that i held it in to long......
From above comes a faint smile, a new vantage such a view.
Familiarity know disowned.
Just sit and stare as i walk away.

what went down on the side of the road?
What i saw at the edge of the see.
Only those elements time cannot wear,
And they follow.
What seeped out throught the cracks in time,
What sucks out the color in me?
What awaits beyond infinity?

Beyond and to all time i stand.

What blew in with the great gale?
What weighed down the falling leaves?
What came forth from the remains?
What has always lived and gone unseen?
What has caused the night to fall?
Who speaks of eternity?
Who awakes to night eternally?

Beyond and to all time i stand.

De profundis clamavi (baudelaire)
O my sole love, i pray thee pity me
From out this dark gulf where my poor heart lies,
A baren world hemmed in by leaden skies
Where horror flies at night, and blasphemy.

For half the year the sickly sun is seen,
The other half thick night lies on the land,
A country bleaker than the polar strand;
No beasts, no brooks, nor any shred of green.

There never was a horror which surpassed
This icy sun's cold cruelty, and this vast
Night like primeval chaos; would i were

Like the dumb brutes, who in a secret lair
Lie wrapt in stupid slumber for a space...
Time creeps at so burdensome a pace.

Let's admire the pattern forming.
Murderous filigree.
I'm caught in the twisting of the vine.
Go ascend with ivy,climbing.
Ignore and leave for me the headstone crumbling behind.
I can't help my laughter as she cries.
My soul brings tears to angelic eyes.
Let's amend the classic story, close it so beautifully,
I'll let animosity unwind.
Steal away the darkened pages, hidden so shamefully.
I'll still feel the violence of the lines.
I can't stand my laughter as they cry.
My soul brings tears to angelic eyes.
And miles away my mother cries.
Omnipotence, nurturing malevolence.

To the wounded:
I have seen the self image
They've forced you to reduce to shattered glass,
With the only remaining value lying in it's jagged edges.
But the few who warrant waking for await their recognition.
No fear of death but with fear of life,
Your weakness kills everyone.
So live.
Angels for everyone.
For no lack of searching i can't seem to find one.
Angels in everyone.
What of all their promises?
Can't seem to find much more than lies.
Angels in anyone.
A permanent solution to a temporary problem.
Before i'd lay me down to rest,
I'd throw away everything to live.

Open my eyes as i submerge
And i won't deny what i've been since birth.
I'll die drowned by your standards.
Breathe in the life of the summmer's death as the orange
And red breathe their first breath,
So welcome as they're burning through.
We all begin to burn.
Autumn's flame dance's in my eyes
Set alight for all we've learned.
My ashes falling.
My skin is singed but it heals my heart
And with glowing pride i'll wear my scars.
I'm honored by your hatred.
Leaves fall we arise again,
And the end impending,
It will begin.
So welcome as it's burning through.
Ashes fall and i'm rising up again. ashes fall.
Ashes fall. ashes fall as we all arise.

I've been dreaming, I've been dreaming
I was lucid.
Blood was seeping from my pores.
Who'd believe that it was all my own decision?
Cracked faces and medicated smiles.
Set fire to my home before i turned and walked back in.
For even needle open my chest and insert ten pins.
I just anticipate what awaits when i awake... break.
I die in my daydreams.
The gardens have all been overgrown.
I pushed my hand through the thorns to crush the final rose.
A deadly secret only i suffer to know.
I can't eradicate what awaits when i awake... break.
I die in my day dreams.