Identity Crisis

Your traps are all baited
your scales are all weighted
but not resisting you would surely drive me insane
so im caught and convicted,
my rights are restricted
the imbecile dynasty continues to reign

your apathy of thought
has lead you to believe
that things are what they're not
my friend you've been decieved
the easiest route rarely leads to the truth
i see the self approval glaze your eyes
you know you're right
no need to worry why
a thousand stones remain unturned
in the wake of your unquestioned answers
and truth covered lies

traditions some bear
idly without out a care
but are determined that they stand unchanged
and those who choose to rebel
just to raise up some hell
tell me what are you hoping to gain

i cant reason with you
i speak words you can't hear
social conditioning left you with deafened ears
so i take your face in hand
see that look in your eyes
that rigormortis stare,
that look that i despise
and so i turn from you
i walk these streets alone
alone i search for truth
ideal that you've disowned
and wait with fingers crossed
and pray you'll someday find
a way to see things though your own eyes

Image marred by selfinfliction
Private wars on my soul waged
Heart is scarred by dual volitions
Juxtaposed and both engaged
Kindle fame, a test of faith
Pray help me see it through
I put all my trust in you

Refine hate and love
Fall afresh on me
End this crisis of Identity

Draw this darkness out like poison
Stab, retrive, again decline
Help me drive the dagger deeper
Trace me with explicit line
Take this blade, a test of faith,
And strike me deep and true
I put all my trust in you

This is my voice, all shadows stayed
This is my heart, upon the alter laid
Please take all else away,
Hear my cry, I beg, I plead, I pray
I'll walk into the flame
A calculated risk to further bless your name
So strike me deep and true
And in your strenght I will live
And die both unto you.

Like a Phoenix Ignition
Like a crematorium
Like a swelling volition from the barrel of a gun
From the ashes and the embers
Like a rocket I'll ascend
Like a cry up for a fallen friend
Like a cry gone up for a fallen...

Like a Phoenix Ignition
Like a crematorium
Like a swelling volition from the barrel of a gun
From the ashes and the embers
Like a rocket I'll ascend
Like a cry gone up for a fallen friend
I'LL ASCEND!

Everyday tear down these walls
Till cornerstones remain
Coming COMING ONE STEP CLOSER ALL THE TIME
And although we'll never reach perfection ALWAYS PERSIST TO TRY

No regrets
No regrets, just rebirth
Move forward and ignite
Incandescent reinvention
A new renaissance
A NEW FIRE EACH DAY (2x)
DAY (4x)

It's my Life
you set bar too high
your expectations have become my failure
a shell you see so shallow but deep inside
my heart beats just the same as yours
the same blood through these clean veins
can't you see that i'm in pain
it seems my life is always under par
what can i say to change your mind about what i am
others can see what was hidden from your sight
a kid with courage and heart and his eyes open wide
an inner beauty and a bright light
my focus is not yours
i set my sights on new horizons and let my soul have scope
can't you see that i have my own dreams
and though they're not the same as yours
they hold value to me, tell me why can't you see
i'm not the means to mend your past regrets
what can i say to change your mind about what i am
others can see what was hidden from your sight
a kid with courage and heart and his eyes open wide
inner beauty and a bright light
judged for how i look, not for the good that i have done
i try the best i can, but it seems that i'm not the perfect son
shaped by God, and my volition
and the seeds that you have sown
but i ask you once again
when does my life become my own?

Bound to this couch, I lie waiting
Watching wind blown memories
Slip by my window sill
I can't fall asleep
Voices in my head desturbs me
Waking nightmares keep,
Have my cries fallen on deaf ears
Can you hear me or am I...

Talking to myself again,
Is there anybody listening
Are you taking this in,
Am I wasting my breath
Tell me, is the wind in your sails
Worth everything you give
Are you looking for something, forgiveness

I leave it up to you,
I guess I'm better off removed
Because the situations growing too thick,
In your hands

Could it have been something I said,
Or was it something that I did
Did I ruin my chance,
Have you written me off
Tell me where did I cross the line,
And can I work my way back this time
Will I always regret this decision
I leave it up to you,
I hope that you find a good excuse because
I've given all that I can give,
In your hands

Are you taking this in,
Am I wasting my breath
Did I ruin my chance,
Have you written me off

(Background)
I could try to count the times
that I've been through this in my mind
But I am running out of fingers
And I don't have that much time

Only now that you have taught me
but how late my lack
I see the chasm
and everything you are was making
my heart into a bridge
by which I might get back
from exile and grow man
and now the bridge is breaking

for this I bless you as the ruin falls

the pain you bring
far greater than all other gain