Through Being Cool

This isn't the way we planned
I wasn't supposed to forget your taste
Like nights spent figuring all the ways that we came to this place
There we were alone on top of your old rooftop in highland park
But ask me now..
Say, "chris look out across the sky and tell me which way the wind blows."
A core of coal
A core of coal and starches in within me
But even now that you're not here
I climb these mountains of houses every night
I say your name and i wish i could have done things right.

Last night i dreamt you called from costa rica
The place you've been for the last two weeks
You said, "i miss you, oh sweet boy, and will you come on down?"
I woke up to my cold sheets and the smell of new jersey
When do i get to wake up to you?
Today i can't forget that i've got these open wounds
It's such a drag
I can't forget you've gone
My ribs have parted ways
They said, "we're not going to protect this heart you have."
Oh no, what can i do?
My lungs are breathing open air
And my spleen is dripping from my pants
You've left me here in the cold
And i miss you
You never told me it would be this hard
I think my body's saying so
When you're not here, it's leaving me
But i hope that you're o.k.
Even though i'm dying
I hope that you're still trying to have a killer time
Go see the volcanoes
Go see the rainforests
I'll be fine by myself
I'll be fine without these bones.

I stepped out into the night and put my feet down on the wet patio floor
The sky's air had been cooling and steam rose from everywhere
I could feel drops of rain slipping off tree's leaves and splattering to the ground
It's always misty after a summer pour
And i'll remember turning around and looking out
And staring in and focusing on this one beautiful girl
And i said, "oh who is this?
Where was she all those crazy years?
Where was she when my heart couldn't take its beat?"
I sipped down some warm ginger ale
And drew back a breath
And headed over to see about this girl
I couldn't say a thing and i just stared open and wide
And i connected with her eyes to feel my gut fall through the floor
Oh my god, i think i'm falling.

Do you know what i love the most?
Even suburbs would be o.k.
With you between my sheets
And the breeze in the window
'cause we will go there and ignore all our neighbors
I think i'll bring you breakfast and play johnny cash on the stereo
I'll sit in the lazy chair all day remembering the things you do
So when you come home
I'll jump up to kiss you and it will knock you back
You'll fall over our tv set
I'll pick you up and dust you off
Oh, baby let's give it a go
I'll kiss your thighs to make you feel all right
And then i'll get closer to taste a little sweat
Oh i think i'm rearing to go
You're gonna get knocked out and tied up in my trunk
In ten years we'll go to ohio and steal cadillac's for a living.

Could you tell me the next time that you're choking?
'cause i'll rush right over
To shove some dirt right down your throat
It's nothing i have against you
You're just a creep and
You can't remember the last five years
What's a bond if it dissolves in water?
I took a piss that lasted longer
Than you and your manipulations
I called my mom last night
She said, "sweetie, you don't need someone
Who's more fleeting than fall"
'cause don't you love those leaves?
Don't you wish the orange stayed forever
And crickets sang in the night all through winter?"
And i thought, slow down, chris
Think of all the time this jerk
Has fucked you up and left you down
And hey, i choose my company
By the beating of their hearts
Not the swelling of their heads
Besides, i'd rather forget the days we spent
Than try to stay afloat in shallow water.

There's something sweet about seeing the world
There's something great about kansas
It's like staring across an ocean
Like seeing the first stars burn white
Through the swamp and trees of southern night
Oh, i'll always have those mornings in
California where the mountains climb so tall
And waves crash blue around you
When everyone's passed out in the van
And i'm the one driving through the land
Alone in open roading
Ted's out in the seat right next to me
He's drooling on his sleeve
Who ever made up open skies and two of the bluest eyes
Must be some young phenom
Sometimes taking off can open up your eyes
To everything that lies in your heart
'cause that's when you miss your home
And the trees seem a little deader
I think we're getting back tonight
Would you care if i came over?
I've missed you about three weeks now
I'm dying just to taste your lips
Could we stomp around your back yard
And wreck our clothes in the mud?