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receiving dept 3 a m
staff cuts have socked up the overage
directives are posted
no callbacks complaints
everywhere is calm

hong kong is present
taipei awakes
all talk of circadian rhythm

i see today with a newsprint fray
my night is colored headache grey
daysleeper

the bull and the bear are marking
their territories
they're leading the blind with
their international glories

i'm the screen the blinding light
i'm the screen i work at night

i see today with a newsprint fray
my night is colored headache grey
don't wake me with so much
daysleeper

i cried the other night
i can't even say why
fluorescent flat caffeine lights
its furious balancing

i'm the screen the blinding light
i'm the screen i work at night
i see today
don't wake me with so much the
ocean machine is set to 9
i'll squeeze into heaven and valentine
my bed is pulling me
gravity
daysleeper daysleeper
daysleeper daysleeper daysleeper

if we're talking about love
then i have to tell you
dear readers i'm not sure where i'm headed
i've gotten lost before
i've woke up stone drunk
face down in the floor

late afternoon the house is hot
i started i jumped up
everyone hates a bore
everyone hates a drunk

this may be a lit invention
professors muddled in their intent
to try to rope in followers
to float their malcontent
as for this reader
i'm already spent

late afternoon the house is hot
i started i jumped up
everyone hates a sad professor
i hate where i wound up

dear readers my apologies
i'm drifting in and out of sleep
long silence presents the tragedies
of love note the age get afraid
the surface hazy with attendant thoughts
a lazy eye metaphor on the rocks

late afternoon the house is hot
i started i jumped up
everyone hates a bore
everyone hates a drunk
everyone hates a sad professor
i hate where i wound up
i hate where i wound up

you want to go out friday
and you want to go forever
you know that it sounds childish
that you've dreamt of alligators
you hope that we are with you
and you hope you're recognized
you want to go forever
you see it in my eyes
i'm lost in the confusion
and it doesn't seem to matter
you really can't believe it
and you hope it's getting better

you want to trust the doctors
their procedure is the best
but the last try was a failure
and the intern was a mess
and they did the same to matthew
and he bled 'til sunday night
they're saying don't be frightened
but you're weakened by the sight of it
you lock into a pattern
and you know that it's the last ditch
you're trying to see through it
and it doesn't make sense
but they're saying don't be frightened
and they're killing alligators
and they're hog tied
and accepting of the struggle

you want to trust religion
and you know it's allegory
but the people who are followers
have written their own story
so you look up to the heavens
and you hope that it's a spaceship
and it's something from your childhood
you're thinking don't be frightened

you want to climb the ladder
you want to see forever
you want to go out friday
and you want to go forever
and you want to cross your dna
to cross your dna with something reptile
and you're questioning the sciences
and questioning religion
you're looking like an idiot
and you no longer care
and you want bridge the schism
a built in mechanism to protect you
and you're looking for salvation
and you're looking for deliverance
you're looking for deliverance
you're looking like an idiot
and you no longer care
you want to climb the ladder
you want to see forever
you want to go out friday
you want to go forever

they call me the apologist
and now that i'm at peak
you know at first it really hurt
we joke about these things
i've skirted all my differences
but now i'm facing up
i wanted to apologize for
everything i was so
i'm sorry so sorry

did you understand me right
the people here are good
they tell me what i should have done
and offer what i could
i'm good all is good
all's well no complaints
when i feel regret
i get down on my knees and pray
i'm sorry so sorry

i live a simple life
unfettered by complex sweets
you think this isn't me
don't be weak
there i go
i'm so sorry

thank you for being there for me
thank you for listening goodbye
i can forfeit selfishness
i hope for you that you apply
this happiness
this peacefulness
i'm sorry so sorry

i live a simple life
unfettered by complex sweets
you think this isn't me
that's so sweet
i'm so sorry

the concrete broke your fall
to hear you speak of it
i'd have done anything
i would do anything
i feel like a cartoon brick wall
to hear you speak of it
you've been so sad
it makes me worry
why not smile
you've been sad for a while
why not smile

i would do anything
to hear you speak of it
why not smile
you've been sad for a while
you've been sad for a while

you wanted a challenge that's calling you higher i landed on my feet by crawling i
remember standing alone trying to forget you idling i hate to admit that that's my
reference point but there it is you say you want me

i'm what you found i'm upside down you're in the air you're in the air and i am breathing

brighten the stars the weather is lifting the heavens love a love like this it's pulling
you higher twist it and turn this around it lights from within it dribbles your chin now
brings a smile i'm lost again i'm lost again

i'm what you found i'm upside down you're in the air you're in the air and i am breathing
you

i want the stars to know they've won if only to beguile the sky has opened up again in
heaven reconciled i want you naked i want you wild i want the stars to know they win
give me that smile just give it me just turn it on i'm lost again

i'm what you found i'm upside down you're in the air i'm what you found i'm upside down
you're in the air i'm what you found i'm upside down you're everywhere you're in the air
and i am breathing you

i've found a way to make you
i've found a way
a way to make you smile

i read bad poetry
into your machine
i save your messages
just to hear your voice
you always listen carefully
to awkwards rhymes
you always say your name
like i woulden't know it's you
at your most beautiful

i've found a way to make you
i've found a way
a way to make you smile

at my most beautiful
i count your eyelashes secretly
with every one whisper i love you
i let you sleep
i know you're closed eye watching me
listening
i thought i saw a smile

i've found a way to make you
i've found a way
a way to make you smile