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Standing in the doorway
Of my life in this house
Trying to find a way to get out
Looking for a sign
That I should open the door
This craziness is getting me down

But today is the day
We break free

Walking down the stairway
To the traffic below
Anything could happen
I know
But I'm sick of everybody
Telling me what to do
I hear you
Hey but I already know

And today is the day
We break free

It's clear in my mind
After all of this time
What I feel my love

There are so many times
That the sun doesn't shine
But I'm here my love

And today is the day

Maybe I should wait
Just a minute or two
It's getting cold now
I feel so insecure

The future is a mistress
That is so hard to please
And the past
Is a pebble in my shoe

( poe and mark danielewski )

Mark:
Keiri suggested we go for a drive in her new 2-door bmw coupe
In the parking lot, we slipped into her bucket seats
Keiri took over from there.
At nearly 90 miles per hour she zipped us up to that windy edge
Known to some as mullholland, that sinuous road running the ridge of the santa monica mountains
Where she then proceeded to pump her vehicle in and out of turns
Sometimes dropping down to 50 miles per hour, only to immediately gun it back up to 90 again
Fast, slow, fast fast slow
Sometime a wide turn sometimes a quick one she preferred the tighter ones
The sharp controlled jerks, swinging left to right before driving back to the right
Only so she could do it all over again until after enough speed, and
Enough wind, and more distance than i had been prepared to expect
Taking me to parts of the city i rarely think of and never visit...

Poe:
Hey pretty
Don't you wanna take a ride with me?
Through my world

Hey pretty
Don't you wanna kick and slide
Through my world

Mark:
I can't remember the inane things i started babbling about then, i know it didn't really matter, she wasn't listening
She just yanked up on the emergency brake, dropped her seat back, and told me to lie on top of her
On top of those leather pants of hers, extremely expensive leather pants

Mind you, her hands immediately guiding mine over those soft, slightly oily folds
Positioning my fingers on the shiny metal tab, small and round, like a tear
Then murmuring a murmur so inaudible that even though i could feel her
Lips tremble against my ear, she seemed far, far away
Pinch it, she said, which i did, lightly, until she also said pull it,
Which i also did, gently parting the teeth, one at a time, down under
And beneath, the longest unzipping of my life...

Poe:
Hey pretty
Don't you wanna take a ride with me?
Through my world

Hey pretty
Don't you wanna kick and slide
Through my world

Hey pretty
My pretty baby
Rock it through my world (through my world)

Hey pretty (hey pretty)
My pretty baby
Rock it through my world (my world)

Mark:
We never even kissed, or looked into each other's eyes, our lips just
Trespassed on those inner labyrinths hidden deep within our ears,
Filled them with the private music of wicked words
Hers in many languages, mine in the off-color of my only tongue, until
As our tones shifted and our consonants spun and squealed, rabbled faster, hesitated, raced harder
Syllables soon melting into groans or moans, finding purchase in new words, or old words, or made-up words
Until we gathered up our heat and refused to release it, enjoying too
Much the dark lane which we had suddenly stumbled upon
Prayed to, carved to, not a communication really, but a channeling of
Our rumored desires, hers for all i know gone to black forests and
Wolves, mine banging back to the familiar form, that great revenant mystery i still could only hear the shape of
Which in spite of our separate lusts and individual prize, still
Continued to drive us deeper into stranger tones, our mutual desire to keep gripping the burn
Fueled by sound, hers screeching, mine...i didn't hear mine, only hers, probably counter-pointing mine
A high pitched cry, then a whisper dropping unexpectedly, to practically
A bark, a grunt, whatever, no sense anymore, and suddenly no more curves either, just the straightaway
Too bad dark languages rarely survive..."

Das nicht zu hause sein x2 ( = there is no house in german )

Ba da da da (da x 8 echoes )

I can hear the tick of the clock,
Too close to my head.
It's giving me a headache,
To think of all,
Of all the tick tocks,
I've ever heard,
Only second counted,
Now didn't it,
Once long ago.
It was lilke an atom bomb went off in my house,
And everybody left.
I wish I were a superhero like the X-Men in the comics,
'Cause maybe then I could've withstood the blast.
Oh but I shattered like an ordinary sheet of glass,
And there's not enough superglue in the world.

Chorus:
How long...how long...how long
till I feel whole again
How long...how long...how long
till I feel whole again.

Oh I wish I were just like the T1000 in Terminator 2,
'Cause he could melt back together again,
Even after Schwartznegger blew him to bits.
Yeah he was mean, but he knew exactly who he was.
Oh, and incidentally, so did that guy, Kiser Soze,
In Usual Suspects, but he had to blow his whole family away.

Chorus

I wish I could lie,
I wish I didn't care,
I wish I could like just like that guy.
I wish I could lie,
I wish I didn't care,
I wish I could like just like that guy.
I wish I could lie,
I wish I didn't care,
I wish I could like just like that guy.

I can hear the tick of that clock,
Still close to my head
Maybe if I couldn't hear the seconds pass,
I wouldn't have to ask:

Chorus

How long...how long...

When I was a kid,
I was older than everyone.
When I was a kid,
I could it make it easier,
Easier on everyone,
And anything at all.

Before I was a girl,
Well I could be anyone,
Magician or a physicist,
A Doctor Strangeglove too.

Yeah I could be anyone,
Hell I could even be you.

Before you were a boy,
You told me everything,
Nothing in your closet,
Bad enough too keep you,
All alone,
If you could be anyone,
Or anything at all.

And once you deceive me,
I close my eyes,
I could not see.
You wouldn't believe me,
So I look in deep,
'Cause I know I see.

I see you there
I see you there
I see you there
I see you there

I'll see you there
I'll see you there
I'll see you there (Anytime)
I'll see you there (Anytime)
I'll see you there (Anytime at all)